Mood: not sure
Well, another day of work and it wasn't so bad. It was after work that made for a better day, I stopped off at a major store (Yellow Sign, Blue letters), anyway, I went looking for some new earphone covers, which they didn't have. Anyway, I found a new game that I was playing online and decided to pick it up. The game is Bejeweled 2 Deluxe, I got pretty addicted to it, mostly for the music and the graphics are pretty good.
I also picked up a new DVD audio disc, as it turns out, I don't have a DTS decoder or at least, my current sound card doesn't have that feature built in, I may have to upgrade my soundcard to the latest version of the Soundblaster. Another alternative is to find a software DTS decoder. I guess it wasn't a total loss, I did get a Paul Oakenfold album, most of the tracks on the album were pretty good.
Well, that was it for today, till the next time, stay well and stay safe.
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Stop the world, I wanna get off...
Mood: irritated
The day started off pretty nice, although last night some of the neighbors decided to have a get together with some friends. At 0200, they started to arrive, approximately 5 vehicles in all, they all get out, talking loudly, not giving a care about those who work the next day. Then one of the other neighbors return home and decided to use their P.A. system they installed in their vehicle at approximately 0230.
I was about ready to go over and grab the stupid sh** by the throat and tell him, look, you stupid dumbsh**, it's 0230 in the morning, some people are trying to sleep because they have to work on a Saturday and your out here acting like a f***ing a**hole at this hour. I was able to control myself and try to get back to sleep, I suppose the party people left sometime early in the morning before the sun rose.
After my alarm went off, I kept hitting the snooze bar cause I was so tired from last night, Samantha didn't help much with her jumping on the bed and standing on my chest, looking at me, trying to get me up. I finally rolled (really and truely rolled) out of bed and tried to wake up so that I could get ready for work.
Before going in, I really wanted to eat some shrimp from a Vietnamese restaurant I know of in downtown Minneapolis, so I went out of my way to stop off there before actually reaching work. I ended up getting 2 orders of butterfly shirmp with the orange sauce, fried potstickers and an order of Vietnamese summer rolls. For those of you not familiar with the difference, Vietnamese spring rolls are deep fried, like egg rolls and summer rolls are "raw", basically they are made to order and are very fresh and healthy.
Anyway after getting into work, it wasn't so bad, but the thing is they want to open a "ticket" for every single call that we take and also open a "ticket" for tickets that we open. I really was getting frustrated and irritated to the point I just felt like I wanted to pound on something. The thing is, we open a ticket to a group that supports whatever trouble we're reporting and they don't want to deal with it, but when it comes to access, they don't want to give it up, so why have the users call us to open a ticket and no one is able to support it in the first place.
I really don't understand why these people think this way, if they give us the access and we do the support, then they don't have to deal with it or worry about having to be responsible. However when something goes wrong, our department is the first to get blamed because they can't offer the support that it should get.
I'm about ready to open a ticket for every little thing that I or anyone else does... i.e. going to the restroom, going to lunch, talking to my co-workers, getting coffee... The supervisor states that our phone call statistics are poor, but the thing is we're wasting our time opening tickets for tickets for tickets. They have also stated that we don't open enough tickets, but we get so backed up on calls, so what are their true intentions?
Anyway, enough of that, I hope that my neigbor who asked me out to go dancing and drinking is planning on going tonight, I think I could use a distraction as such.
Well, till next time, stay well and stay safe.
The day started off pretty nice, although last night some of the neighbors decided to have a get together with some friends. At 0200, they started to arrive, approximately 5 vehicles in all, they all get out, talking loudly, not giving a care about those who work the next day. Then one of the other neighbors return home and decided to use their P.A. system they installed in their vehicle at approximately 0230.
I was about ready to go over and grab the stupid sh** by the throat and tell him, look, you stupid dumbsh**, it's 0230 in the morning, some people are trying to sleep because they have to work on a Saturday and your out here acting like a f***ing a**hole at this hour. I was able to control myself and try to get back to sleep, I suppose the party people left sometime early in the morning before the sun rose.
After my alarm went off, I kept hitting the snooze bar cause I was so tired from last night, Samantha didn't help much with her jumping on the bed and standing on my chest, looking at me, trying to get me up. I finally rolled (really and truely rolled) out of bed and tried to wake up so that I could get ready for work.
Before going in, I really wanted to eat some shrimp from a Vietnamese restaurant I know of in downtown Minneapolis, so I went out of my way to stop off there before actually reaching work. I ended up getting 2 orders of butterfly shirmp with the orange sauce, fried potstickers and an order of Vietnamese summer rolls. For those of you not familiar with the difference, Vietnamese spring rolls are deep fried, like egg rolls and summer rolls are "raw", basically they are made to order and are very fresh and healthy.
Anyway after getting into work, it wasn't so bad, but the thing is they want to open a "ticket" for every single call that we take and also open a "ticket" for tickets that we open. I really was getting frustrated and irritated to the point I just felt like I wanted to pound on something. The thing is, we open a ticket to a group that supports whatever trouble we're reporting and they don't want to deal with it, but when it comes to access, they don't want to give it up, so why have the users call us to open a ticket and no one is able to support it in the first place.
I really don't understand why these people think this way, if they give us the access and we do the support, then they don't have to deal with it or worry about having to be responsible. However when something goes wrong, our department is the first to get blamed because they can't offer the support that it should get.
I'm about ready to open a ticket for every little thing that I or anyone else does... i.e. going to the restroom, going to lunch, talking to my co-workers, getting coffee... The supervisor states that our phone call statistics are poor, but the thing is we're wasting our time opening tickets for tickets for tickets. They have also stated that we don't open enough tickets, but we get so backed up on calls, so what are their true intentions?
Anyway, enough of that, I hope that my neigbor who asked me out to go dancing and drinking is planning on going tonight, I think I could use a distraction as such.
Well, till next time, stay well and stay safe.
Friday, April 22, 2005
The day that never was...
Mood: a-ok
Today I was considering on upgrading my motherboard and CPU so that I could install more hard drives for digital recording and video editing, but also I've considered the negative side of that. For one, I don't know if I can add more cards into my system, I believe that I already have my IRQ's max'd out.
The other downside is that to install a RAID controller, I would have to have more drives... either way, it's going to cost more money, my next priority for this computer is to get a new DVD +R/RW so that I can burn my music and videos to disks again. I've considered installing a removable drive option, but it'll only work for the hard drive and not the DVD drive.
I really should save money first, then when I have a back up of funds, consider upgrading my computer again. The other thing I was thinking of was getting a really good digital camera and really go into my hobby of photography, I've seen so many things that would have made great pictures, but didn't have a really good camera to take them with.
I suppose... I'll keep this entry short and write again tomorrow... till next time, stay safe, stay well.
Today I was considering on upgrading my motherboard and CPU so that I could install more hard drives for digital recording and video editing, but also I've considered the negative side of that. For one, I don't know if I can add more cards into my system, I believe that I already have my IRQ's max'd out.
The other downside is that to install a RAID controller, I would have to have more drives... either way, it's going to cost more money, my next priority for this computer is to get a new DVD +R/RW so that I can burn my music and videos to disks again. I've considered installing a removable drive option, but it'll only work for the hard drive and not the DVD drive.
I really should save money first, then when I have a back up of funds, consider upgrading my computer again. The other thing I was thinking of was getting a really good digital camera and really go into my hobby of photography, I've seen so many things that would have made great pictures, but didn't have a really good camera to take them with.
I suppose... I'll keep this entry short and write again tomorrow... till next time, stay safe, stay well.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
A day in the life of...
Mood: a-ok
Today I got a sofa and 2 book shelves. It appears that Samantha, my cat, really likes the sofa. She's been all over it and has been sleeping on it since this evening. I do have to admit, it is a lot more comfortable than the bean bag that I've been using, not to mention a lot higher off the ground. Anyway, I think I mentioned that my former Aunt was moving and was about to just get rid of the sofa, which is in really good condition, so I asked if I could have it.
She was almost not able to get something to move it to my apartment until Sunday, but was able to get a trailer today and we were able to get it here this afternoon. Well, I spent about an hour setting it up so that it was just in the right spot... well, not an hour, but about 15 minutes. The rest of the day, I spent cleaning up the apartment and doing laundry.
After all that, I've been playing bejeweled 2 deluxe and been pretty hooked on it, I'm still debating on either getting it or just stick with the demo version which allows you to play for about an hour... After all that, now that I have my digital recording software re-installed, I've been making my own ringtones. There are a lot of them out there, but when it comes to having a particular ringtone, it doesn't seem to have it.
Oh, yeah, as for that box that I had forgotten at the house, there were some books that I had thought I had lost, but it turns out that they were in that last box, the only thing that I still can't find, is my book of recipes that I had collected from the restaurants that I've worked for. I had some really good recipes for sauces that I guess I'll just have to try to recreate from memory... oh well, what can you do?
I guess that's it for now, till next time kiddies...stay safe, stay well.
Today I got a sofa and 2 book shelves. It appears that Samantha, my cat, really likes the sofa. She's been all over it and has been sleeping on it since this evening. I do have to admit, it is a lot more comfortable than the bean bag that I've been using, not to mention a lot higher off the ground. Anyway, I think I mentioned that my former Aunt was moving and was about to just get rid of the sofa, which is in really good condition, so I asked if I could have it.
She was almost not able to get something to move it to my apartment until Sunday, but was able to get a trailer today and we were able to get it here this afternoon. Well, I spent about an hour setting it up so that it was just in the right spot... well, not an hour, but about 15 minutes. The rest of the day, I spent cleaning up the apartment and doing laundry.
After all that, I've been playing bejeweled 2 deluxe and been pretty hooked on it, I'm still debating on either getting it or just stick with the demo version which allows you to play for about an hour... After all that, now that I have my digital recording software re-installed, I've been making my own ringtones. There are a lot of them out there, but when it comes to having a particular ringtone, it doesn't seem to have it.
Oh, yeah, as for that box that I had forgotten at the house, there were some books that I had thought I had lost, but it turns out that they were in that last box, the only thing that I still can't find, is my book of recipes that I had collected from the restaurants that I've worked for. I had some really good recipes for sauces that I guess I'll just have to try to recreate from memory... oh well, what can you do?
I guess that's it for now, till next time kiddies...stay safe, stay well.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Welcome back kiddies...
Mood: not sure
Well, I know it's been almost a week since I last made an entry here, but there a perfectly good reason, I finally got 2 new hard drives for my computer and was having a difficult time after they were installed. I had purchased 2 - 200 gig hard drives to replace the my 2 old drives, one was a 40 gig hard drive that I had filled 32 gigs of data and the other was an 80 gig hard drive that was failing. The failing hard drive I had pulled the power plug so that I could save the drive and pull the data off of it later, however, that plan didn't work out.
Well, the first drive, after I got it installed, was the main problem, I attempted to ghost the drive so that I wouldn't have to re-install everything, well, at first I ran into a problem trying to mirror the drive and should've've ran check disk on it first before making an attempt to copy. Well, after I tried using the Western Digital software, I thought that everything was working without any problems, but then after I tried to access my email and some other programs, it became obvious that it didn't do what I had thought it was suppose to do.
Well, before I made the 5th attempt at copying the drive, I had tried to copy the contents of the 80 gig drive over to the new drive which I had partitioned into 2 drives, however after about 20 gigs, the drive stopped working and I couldn't get anything else off. At that point I was so frustrated that I ended up opening up the 80 gig drive.
Anyway, after that failed attempt, I tried to copy the 40 gig drive again after running check disk and was able to copy the entire contents over, however I ended up moving the partition and losing the rest of the data. So after about 0400 this morning, I was able to get all the data off of the 40 gig hard drive and get my computer running the way it used to (except faster) and started re-installing the other programs that were installed on the broken hard drive. Any other data and files that were on the other drive are lost, but no big deal cause any truly important data that I needed to save have already been backed up and I still have that data.
So the moral of this story is, make sure you back up the really truly data just in case of a drive failure.
Other than that excitement, there really wasn't much going on these past few days that I haven't been able to enter anything into my journal, last night, I did get invited out by a neighbor to go out dancing and drinking, she asked me last month but things got mixed up and we ended up not getting together. We did finally end up trading each others phone numbers so that we could get in touch with each other for this weekend.
My former Aunt (my uncle got divorced 2 years ago) called to let me know that I still had a box of things still at the house which she is selling, so I went over to pick it up. While I was there, she had a couch that was in a pretty good condition that I'll be getting from her as well as some book shelves. I could've have them brought over tomorrow sometime in the afternoon. It would be so much better than the bean bag that I have and I'm sure I'll find myself waking up on the couch after falling asleep watching T.V.
Now I just have to save up some money to get a bed that I was looking at, its a really nice one and I think when I went to go look at it at the furniture store, the sales person said that it was about $300 something. It would be a lot better than using the inflatable raised bed and not have to worry about keeping it inflated.
Well, I guess thats it for this entry, tune in again the next time and see what goes on in my life. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Well, I know it's been almost a week since I last made an entry here, but there a perfectly good reason, I finally got 2 new hard drives for my computer and was having a difficult time after they were installed. I had purchased 2 - 200 gig hard drives to replace the my 2 old drives, one was a 40 gig hard drive that I had filled 32 gigs of data and the other was an 80 gig hard drive that was failing. The failing hard drive I had pulled the power plug so that I could save the drive and pull the data off of it later, however, that plan didn't work out.
Well, the first drive, after I got it installed, was the main problem, I attempted to ghost the drive so that I wouldn't have to re-install everything, well, at first I ran into a problem trying to mirror the drive and should've've ran check disk on it first before making an attempt to copy. Well, after I tried using the Western Digital software, I thought that everything was working without any problems, but then after I tried to access my email and some other programs, it became obvious that it didn't do what I had thought it was suppose to do.
Well, before I made the 5th attempt at copying the drive, I had tried to copy the contents of the 80 gig drive over to the new drive which I had partitioned into 2 drives, however after about 20 gigs, the drive stopped working and I couldn't get anything else off. At that point I was so frustrated that I ended up opening up the 80 gig drive.
Anyway, after that failed attempt, I tried to copy the 40 gig drive again after running check disk and was able to copy the entire contents over, however I ended up moving the partition and losing the rest of the data. So after about 0400 this morning, I was able to get all the data off of the 40 gig hard drive and get my computer running the way it used to (except faster) and started re-installing the other programs that were installed on the broken hard drive. Any other data and files that were on the other drive are lost, but no big deal cause any truly important data that I needed to save have already been backed up and I still have that data.
So the moral of this story is, make sure you back up the really truly data just in case of a drive failure.
Other than that excitement, there really wasn't much going on these past few days that I haven't been able to enter anything into my journal, last night, I did get invited out by a neighbor to go out dancing and drinking, she asked me last month but things got mixed up and we ended up not getting together. We did finally end up trading each others phone numbers so that we could get in touch with each other for this weekend.
My former Aunt (my uncle got divorced 2 years ago) called to let me know that I still had a box of things still at the house which she is selling, so I went over to pick it up. While I was there, she had a couch that was in a pretty good condition that I'll be getting from her as well as some book shelves. I could've have them brought over tomorrow sometime in the afternoon. It would be so much better than the bean bag that I have and I'm sure I'll find myself waking up on the couch after falling asleep watching T.V.
Now I just have to save up some money to get a bed that I was looking at, its a really nice one and I think when I went to go look at it at the furniture store, the sales person said that it was about $300 something. It would be a lot better than using the inflatable raised bed and not have to worry about keeping it inflated.
Well, I guess thats it for this entry, tune in again the next time and see what goes on in my life. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
It was a grey and dreary day...
Mood: not sure
Well, the meeting with the Inspector and the Chief went well, it was mostly about the captain and my complaints against her. It seems that there are other officers that are having a problem with her and the way she handles things. I do have to say that it was a very productive meeting.
After the meeting, I rushed over to my favorite computer parts store and picked up 2 - 200 gig drives, I thought I had asked for Maxtor drives but after getting to work, I found that the clerk had sold me 2 Western Digital 200 gig drives. No big deal and not a problem. The Western Digital drives have an 8 meg buffer, so it wasn't too bad, besides they were the same price.
After getting home, I'll be installing them, I just hope that there won't be a problem imaging my 40 gig drive to my new 200 gig drive. I'll find out after I attempt to install the drive and partition the primary 200 gig drive into an 80 gig and 120 gig partition. Wish me luck...
Till then, stay safe and stay well...
Well, the meeting with the Inspector and the Chief went well, it was mostly about the captain and my complaints against her. It seems that there are other officers that are having a problem with her and the way she handles things. I do have to say that it was a very productive meeting.
After the meeting, I rushed over to my favorite computer parts store and picked up 2 - 200 gig drives, I thought I had asked for Maxtor drives but after getting to work, I found that the clerk had sold me 2 Western Digital 200 gig drives. No big deal and not a problem. The Western Digital drives have an 8 meg buffer, so it wasn't too bad, besides they were the same price.
After getting home, I'll be installing them, I just hope that there won't be a problem imaging my 40 gig drive to my new 200 gig drive. I'll find out after I attempt to install the drive and partition the primary 200 gig drive into an 80 gig and 120 gig partition. Wish me luck...
Till then, stay safe and stay well...
Friday, April 15, 2005
The lost or forgotten
Mood: not sure
Well, back to work. I got a call from the Inspector today asking me to come in and meet with the chief. I'm not sure what to think or what to expect. I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I meet with them.
Very short entry today, stay safe, stay well...
Well, back to work. I got a call from the Inspector today asking me to come in and meet with the chief. I'm not sure what to think or what to expect. I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I meet with them.
Very short entry today, stay safe, stay well...
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Treating people like they were beneath themselves...
Mood: irritated
Well, today was a little more productive than yesterday, I finally decided to breakout of my self proclaimed isolation from the rest of the world and went out to pick up some lunch at McDo****s, it has been a while and I decided to treat myself (if you call that a treat... if you know what I mean) anyway, I was also out of my one and only vice, cigarettes.
Anyway, tonight we had a defensive tactics / handcuffing class for the department and I wasn't looking forward to going because I don't like the Captain who is almost always there. She treats everyone as if they were beneath her. Anyway, I ended up going to the training and of course, she was there, so I didn't say anything to her and just about smoked about half my pack while I was there waiting for the rest of the recruits and officers to show up.
Well, after about half an hour another officer showed up and while she was talking with him, she said out loud to that officer "I'm sure [my name] will move from the desk so that you can get your paperwork done". One of my major pet peeves is don't talk about me as if I'm not there, if you got something to say, say it or ask me, to my face. I got pretty upset at that point and picked up my book and threw it so it would slam onto the table.
Well, the captain, now acting like a wounded duck decided to "tell" the inspector (like a little kid) that I had made a fuss, well, the inspector called me out and talked with me outside and I told him, that she (the captain) can go f**k herself, I also told him that the reason that I haven't been around lately was mostly because of her and that what she was doing was creating a hostile environment which would be grounds for a harassment lawsuit.
I also told the inspector that I had mentioned it to my direct superior of my intentions and by his request not to. So at his request, I decided not to and wait. I also expressed my concerns about the Lt. and his lack of backbone to deal with the issues that I had brought up and re-informed him of the chain of command. However he still didn't want to deal with the issues. I had also brought up the issue with a officer that was under my command and what the Captain had told her, it seems that the inspector was more than willing to deal with the issues that I brought up than both my superiors.
Well, anyway, after the training class, I didn't stick around after, as soon as I could, I left and came home. Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll write more again tomorrow. Till then, stay safe and stay well.
Well, today was a little more productive than yesterday, I finally decided to breakout of my self proclaimed isolation from the rest of the world and went out to pick up some lunch at McDo****s, it has been a while and I decided to treat myself (if you call that a treat... if you know what I mean) anyway, I was also out of my one and only vice, cigarettes.Anyway, tonight we had a defensive tactics / handcuffing class for the department and I wasn't looking forward to going because I don't like the Captain who is almost always there. She treats everyone as if they were beneath her. Anyway, I ended up going to the training and of course, she was there, so I didn't say anything to her and just about smoked about half my pack while I was there waiting for the rest of the recruits and officers to show up.
Well, after about half an hour another officer showed up and while she was talking with him, she said out loud to that officer "I'm sure [my name] will move from the desk so that you can get your paperwork done". One of my major pet peeves is don't talk about me as if I'm not there, if you got something to say, say it or ask me, to my face. I got pretty upset at that point and picked up my book and threw it so it would slam onto the table.
Well, the captain, now acting like a wounded duck decided to "tell" the inspector (like a little kid) that I had made a fuss, well, the inspector called me out and talked with me outside and I told him, that she (the captain) can go f**k herself, I also told him that the reason that I haven't been around lately was mostly because of her and that what she was doing was creating a hostile environment which would be grounds for a harassment lawsuit.
I also told the inspector that I had mentioned it to my direct superior of my intentions and by his request not to. So at his request, I decided not to and wait. I also expressed my concerns about the Lt. and his lack of backbone to deal with the issues that I had brought up and re-informed him of the chain of command. However he still didn't want to deal with the issues. I had also brought up the issue with a officer that was under my command and what the Captain had told her, it seems that the inspector was more than willing to deal with the issues that I brought up than both my superiors.
Well, anyway, after the training class, I didn't stick around after, as soon as I could, I left and came home. Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll write more again tomorrow. Till then, stay safe and stay well.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Other Journals
Mood: not sure
I've been reading another person's journal titled "Pregnant & stressed out!". I'm concerned for that person and feel what she's feeling, no, not because I'm pregnant, I can't get pregnant because i'm a male. Carmen, who is the author of that journal, is going through some very difficult times, her "boyfriend" seems like a real jerk that doesn't deserve to have children and really doesn't really deserve Carmen.
Also, her mother seems to have some serious issues in her past that Carmen's mother decided to take the easy way out and drink her problems away and now doesn't care about her daughter and the child that Carmen is carrying within her. It makes me upset that there are people like that still. I hope that Carmen reads the response to one of her entries that I had left.
If it were me, I would have taken responsibility for my actions. I guess when children are involved, I really want the best that I can give to the best of my abilities. I guess I would have to say that I come from a divorced family but also I was also brought up to believe that family is the most important thing you have in life. The funny thing is, is that I'm also divorced, but that was back in 1990, I was only married for a little over a year. The thing is, I don't want to be like my father, a drug addict loser.
Well, anyway, on with my day... I got called by the dating agency to say that my dinner date had to cancel. That is the 3rd time that this has happened, it seems like those matches who had the potential of being someone that I would be interested in and may be a really good match, seem to not even get a chance to meet. I don't have any luck with women on my own and it seems to be the same with the dating agency.
So, with that said, since I didn't have to go out, I ended up cleaning up the bathroom and cooking sloppy joe's from scratch and adding more money to my checking account... YES... another boring day.
Well, till tomorrow, stay well and stay safe.
I've been reading another person's journal titled "Pregnant & stressed out!". I'm concerned for that person and feel what she's feeling, no, not because I'm pregnant, I can't get pregnant because i'm a male. Carmen, who is the author of that journal, is going through some very difficult times, her "boyfriend" seems like a real jerk that doesn't deserve to have children and really doesn't really deserve Carmen.
Also, her mother seems to have some serious issues in her past that Carmen's mother decided to take the easy way out and drink her problems away and now doesn't care about her daughter and the child that Carmen is carrying within her. It makes me upset that there are people like that still. I hope that Carmen reads the response to one of her entries that I had left.
If it were me, I would have taken responsibility for my actions. I guess when children are involved, I really want the best that I can give to the best of my abilities. I guess I would have to say that I come from a divorced family but also I was also brought up to believe that family is the most important thing you have in life. The funny thing is, is that I'm also divorced, but that was back in 1990, I was only married for a little over a year. The thing is, I don't want to be like my father, a drug addict loser.
Well, anyway, on with my day... I got called by the dating agency to say that my dinner date had to cancel. That is the 3rd time that this has happened, it seems like those matches who had the potential of being someone that I would be interested in and may be a really good match, seem to not even get a chance to meet. I don't have any luck with women on my own and it seems to be the same with the dating agency.
So, with that said, since I didn't have to go out, I ended up cleaning up the bathroom and cooking sloppy joe's from scratch and adding more money to my checking account... YES... another boring day.
Well, till tomorrow, stay well and stay safe.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Tomorrow's another day
Mood: a-ok
Well, tomorrow I have a dinner date with someone that I was setup with through a dating agency, I'll find out how she is at some restaurant in St. Louis Park, MN. The restaurant is a Brazillian type cusine, which should be interesting. Although I've been wanting to get some Sombusa, a Somalian version of the empanada (sp?). The sombusa has spiced beef or some type of meat in the center of a egg roll type wrapper.
Anyway, my "vacation" has been going good, relaxing and spending time alone so that I don't have to deal with people, but the thing is, the stupid people that live around the apartment complex. I'm getting tired of having to put up with the stupid people that don't care about others except for themselves. I suppose when you first move out, the first thing you usually do is party without caring about the other people around you.
I'm hoping on picking up a really good paintball gun and thinking about sniping some of these idiots, just to put the fear of a supreme being into their limited thinking, drug induced minds. I know that there are more than likely a couple of places that the occupants are selling drugs. I just wished that I had the ability and authority to do something about it.
I suppose that I could, but then again, taking matters into my own hands could have a negative effect instead of the positive effect that I would like to see happen. I do have to admit, I am no longer in shape to do the things that I have done in the past that could bring about those changes, but then again, that could change.
Well, I guess that's it for this entry, another short one, but at least there will be more to come. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Well, tomorrow I have a dinner date with someone that I was setup with through a dating agency, I'll find out how she is at some restaurant in St. Louis Park, MN. The restaurant is a Brazillian type cusine, which should be interesting. Although I've been wanting to get some Sombusa, a Somalian version of the empanada (sp?). The sombusa has spiced beef or some type of meat in the center of a egg roll type wrapper.
Anyway, my "vacation" has been going good, relaxing and spending time alone so that I don't have to deal with people, but the thing is, the stupid people that live around the apartment complex. I'm getting tired of having to put up with the stupid people that don't care about others except for themselves. I suppose when you first move out, the first thing you usually do is party without caring about the other people around you.
I'm hoping on picking up a really good paintball gun and thinking about sniping some of these idiots, just to put the fear of a supreme being into their limited thinking, drug induced minds. I know that there are more than likely a couple of places that the occupants are selling drugs. I just wished that I had the ability and authority to do something about it.
I suppose that I could, but then again, taking matters into my own hands could have a negative effect instead of the positive effect that I would like to see happen. I do have to admit, I am no longer in shape to do the things that I have done in the past that could bring about those changes, but then again, that could change.
Well, I guess that's it for this entry, another short one, but at least there will be more to come. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down...
Mood: blue
Today was the first day of my 4 days off from work which I felt that I was approaching a burn out. I could tell because it seemed that I was always angry with the people calling in, not to mention I was getting close to telling a couple of people off at work. Well, the other thing is, I just did a check of my blood pressure and found that my BP is 124 over 64, which is on the high side. It is a lot better than earlier.
I'm sure that while I was at work, it would've been much higher. So I need to really work at losing weight and stop smoking. I suppose that it's these next 3 days that I have to make the most of and keep my BP down.
I did go grocery shopping today, I picked up a couple of steaks. It seems every once in a while I just have the need to have a good steak so I picked up a Filet and a New York Strip. I also picked up some stew meat for Japanese curry and hamburger for some sloppy joes later. Sometimes I make enough curry to put into portions and freeze them for either or both dinner and lunch. For some reason, I've been wanting to eat sloppy joes and not the type that you use a can mix and hamburger, but the kind of sloppy joes that takes time to make (in a way), at least the kind I used to make at the restaurant.
This morning I was suprised with a call from Russia, one of the women that I have been emailing back and forth actually called me. I was so suprised that I didn't know what to say and right now I am at a loss for words to write back to her. All I can do for now is hope that one of them is the person that I've been looking for, my soul mate.
I suppose that is why I've been holding out, not sure of the person that I'm with, I just don't want to be used or lied to. I want someone that I can trust and love, someone to share my deepest secrets, someone to love. Well, I guess that's it for now, more later. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Today was the first day of my 4 days off from work which I felt that I was approaching a burn out. I could tell because it seemed that I was always angry with the people calling in, not to mention I was getting close to telling a couple of people off at work. Well, the other thing is, I just did a check of my blood pressure and found that my BP is 124 over 64, which is on the high side. It is a lot better than earlier.
I'm sure that while I was at work, it would've been much higher. So I need to really work at losing weight and stop smoking. I suppose that it's these next 3 days that I have to make the most of and keep my BP down.
I did go grocery shopping today, I picked up a couple of steaks. It seems every once in a while I just have the need to have a good steak so I picked up a Filet and a New York Strip. I also picked up some stew meat for Japanese curry and hamburger for some sloppy joes later. Sometimes I make enough curry to put into portions and freeze them for either or both dinner and lunch. For some reason, I've been wanting to eat sloppy joes and not the type that you use a can mix and hamburger, but the kind of sloppy joes that takes time to make (in a way), at least the kind I used to make at the restaurant.
This morning I was suprised with a call from Russia, one of the women that I have been emailing back and forth actually called me. I was so suprised that I didn't know what to say and right now I am at a loss for words to write back to her. All I can do for now is hope that one of them is the person that I've been looking for, my soul mate.
I suppose that is why I've been holding out, not sure of the person that I'm with, I just don't want to be used or lied to. I want someone that I can trust and love, someone to share my deepest secrets, someone to love. Well, I guess that's it for now, more later. Till then, stay well and stay safe.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
A quiet day
Mood: a-ok
The day was pretty quiet. I was planning on going to a movie after I got done with work. I tried to purchase tickets online, at the Fandango website, but it was taking a lot longer than it should have so I cancelled the transaction.
I double checked to make sure that it didn't get charged to my card and it didn't. So on my way to my friends house, I stopped off at the back to take out some money.
My friend and I went to go and see Sin City. sin City was a dark fantasy movie based on a animated novel by Frank Miller. It was pretty good, basically it was like a live action movie of a comic book. I do have to say though, if you had gotten up to get a refill, snack or bathroom break, you would've been confused for the rest of the movie.
Well, that was pretty much it, stay well and stay safe.
The day was pretty quiet. I was planning on going to a movie after I got done with work. I tried to purchase tickets online, at the Fandango website, but it was taking a lot longer than it should have so I cancelled the transaction.
I double checked to make sure that it didn't get charged to my card and it didn't. So on my way to my friends house, I stopped off at the back to take out some money.
My friend and I went to go and see Sin City. sin City was a dark fantasy movie based on a animated novel by Frank Miller. It was pretty good, basically it was like a live action movie of a comic book. I do have to say though, if you had gotten up to get a refill, snack or bathroom break, you would've been confused for the rest of the movie.
Well, that was pretty much it, stay well and stay safe.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
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Mood: not sure
Last night, I didn't get much sleep, there was a truck that kept going through the parking lot at the apartments, finally after about the 3rd time he drove through and playing his music really loud, I called the police, but by the time they drove through, he had already left. By the time I was finally able to fall asleep, it was about 0230 (the last time I looked at the clock). OK, so I had my alarm set for 1015 to wake up and get ready for work, but noooooo... some moron decided that at 0630 they were going to honk their horn to get the attention of the person they wanted to visit, so at that point, I decided to stay up until I had to get ready for work.
Well, while watching some TV after checking my e-mails, I ended up falling asleep in front of the TV, good thing I woke up on my own about an hour and a half later, at 1000, before my alarm went off, other wise I wouldn't have waken up in time for work. I just have one, half day of work to go, then I'll be off until Friday, so 4 days off of doing nothing. Maybe not of doing nothing, but at least I'll be able to relax from work and not get burnt out.
I'll be taking up this issue with the rental office, with the new people moving in, it's getting ridicules with all these young punks moving in (Man, do I sound like a grumpy old man). It seems that there are a lot of other residents that are getting fed up with all this as well and are moving out. At last count, there were at least 7 empty apartments out of 28. One of my neighbors had mentioned and complained about the something as I was and she plans to move out as soon as her lease expires.
I just hope that when I get home tonight, I won't have to deal with these idiots.
On the positive side (depending on how you look at it), on my way home last night, I was feeling a bit hungry so I decided to stop off at White Castle, now to those of you that are deprived of such a fine establishment in your location, White Castle, when I first moved up to Minnesota, was introduced to me by my cousins. Now White Castle offers hamburgers, cheeseburger, bacon cheese burgers and such... the hamburgers are not fried like your usual restaurants, or flame broiled, but steamed. Oh, I can hear you all the way here saying "Oh Yuck!", but actually, it's OK and it's really fantastic if you've done some really hard partying before going there.
Then again, I have no problem with eating MRE's or C Rations (I'll save that explanation for another time), anyway, if anything else, it's the french fries, the french fries are not steamed, but are actually deep fried. Also White Castle is usually open 24 hours a day, so especially for you party till the last minute people, it's the only decently priced place you can get something to eat before you go home and fall flat on your face...
The day was really nice, there was a wind blowing which made for a cool day, lots of people walking about in shorts or tee shirts and especially the women that were out shopping, it really made for a nice day. Well, I really should get out more with the nice spring weather that we're having here in Minnesota, I think that on my days off, I'll go out walking with my camera and get some pictures.
Well, anyway, that's it for now, I'll write again tomorrow. Till then, stay safe and stay well...
Last night, I didn't get much sleep, there was a truck that kept going through the parking lot at the apartments, finally after about the 3rd time he drove through and playing his music really loud, I called the police, but by the time they drove through, he had already left. By the time I was finally able to fall asleep, it was about 0230 (the last time I looked at the clock). OK, so I had my alarm set for 1015 to wake up and get ready for work, but noooooo... some moron decided that at 0630 they were going to honk their horn to get the attention of the person they wanted to visit, so at that point, I decided to stay up until I had to get ready for work.
Well, while watching some TV after checking my e-mails, I ended up falling asleep in front of the TV, good thing I woke up on my own about an hour and a half later, at 1000, before my alarm went off, other wise I wouldn't have waken up in time for work. I just have one, half day of work to go, then I'll be off until Friday, so 4 days off of doing nothing. Maybe not of doing nothing, but at least I'll be able to relax from work and not get burnt out.
I'll be taking up this issue with the rental office, with the new people moving in, it's getting ridicules with all these young punks moving in (Man, do I sound like a grumpy old man). It seems that there are a lot of other residents that are getting fed up with all this as well and are moving out. At last count, there were at least 7 empty apartments out of 28. One of my neighbors had mentioned and complained about the something as I was and she plans to move out as soon as her lease expires.
I just hope that when I get home tonight, I won't have to deal with these idiots.
On the positive side (depending on how you look at it), on my way home last night, I was feeling a bit hungry so I decided to stop off at White Castle, now to those of you that are deprived of such a fine establishment in your location, White Castle, when I first moved up to Minnesota, was introduced to me by my cousins. Now White Castle offers hamburgers, cheeseburger, bacon cheese burgers and such... the hamburgers are not fried like your usual restaurants, or flame broiled, but steamed. Oh, I can hear you all the way here saying "Oh Yuck!", but actually, it's OK and it's really fantastic if you've done some really hard partying before going there.
Then again, I have no problem with eating MRE's or C Rations (I'll save that explanation for another time), anyway, if anything else, it's the french fries, the french fries are not steamed, but are actually deep fried. Also White Castle is usually open 24 hours a day, so especially for you party till the last minute people, it's the only decently priced place you can get something to eat before you go home and fall flat on your face...
The day was really nice, there was a wind blowing which made for a cool day, lots of people walking about in shorts or tee shirts and especially the women that were out shopping, it really made for a nice day. Well, I really should get out more with the nice spring weather that we're having here in Minnesota, I think that on my days off, I'll go out walking with my camera and get some pictures.
Well, anyway, that's it for now, I'll write again tomorrow. Till then, stay safe and stay well...
Friday, April 08, 2005
A Day Late, a dollar short
Mood: a-ok
I know that this entry is late, so there will be 2 entries tonight. The day went pretty smoothly, got my license plate to the point where you can see it without having to practically crawl under the car.
I was suprised when I went to take out money from my bank, apparently a person who used the ATM before me forgot to take their receipt and I didn't notice. After my transaction, I picked up the receipt and saw that only half of what I requested was on the receipt, then I noticed another receipt shoot out of the ATM, which had the right amount, but not the correct balance, so I threw the previous receipt away and kept mine. I thought it was strange so after starting my shift, I decided to call my bank and find out if there was anything deposited.
Per the bank clerk, there was a deposit from the state of Minnesota, apparently, my State Tax refund was already deposited on the 6th and I didn't realize it, besides that was really quick since I e-filed my taxes on the 3rd. Anyway, I should be getting my federal on the 15th...
I guess this will be a short one, since there wasn't much going on during the day, I'll have a lot more for the next day.
Stay safe, stay well.
I know that this entry is late, so there will be 2 entries tonight. The day went pretty smoothly, got my license plate to the point where you can see it without having to practically crawl under the car.
I was suprised when I went to take out money from my bank, apparently a person who used the ATM before me forgot to take their receipt and I didn't notice. After my transaction, I picked up the receipt and saw that only half of what I requested was on the receipt, then I noticed another receipt shoot out of the ATM, which had the right amount, but not the correct balance, so I threw the previous receipt away and kept mine. I thought it was strange so after starting my shift, I decided to call my bank and find out if there was anything deposited.
Per the bank clerk, there was a deposit from the state of Minnesota, apparently, my State Tax refund was already deposited on the 6th and I didn't realize it, besides that was really quick since I e-filed my taxes on the 3rd. Anyway, I should be getting my federal on the 15th...
I guess this will be a short one, since there wasn't much going on during the day, I'll have a lot more for the next day.
Stay safe, stay well.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
The forgotten day
Mood: not sure
Not sure what happened to the day, I suppose that when you intend to do nothing, nothing happens. I didn't get anything done as I said that I would, but then again, I'll try to wake up early and get it done tomorrow. I just can't decide if I should move my license plate from the spot that it is in or just adjust it so that it's more visible.
I suppose when I take a look at it tomorrow, I'll have a clearer idea of what I want to do to it.
Living life without someone to share it is pretty lonely. I don't know if I had mentioned it in my online journal, but for some reason, I just can't find anyone. There have been a couple of women that I have dated but have not been able to find anyone for the long term. I think the longest I've been with anyone was about 3 months. At times I wonder if its something that I'm doing or if it's just the type of women that either I'm attracted to or are attracted to me. I also wonder if its the places that I visit that I can't find someone.
I suppose that it could also be related to the type of work that I'm involved with. With the type of work, I seem to get assigned areas that are not of the highest quality. Even though I'm working for a quality employer, my location doesn't allow me to interact with the public directly, so it doesn't give me the opportunity to meet women.
Then again, my personal standards are that I don't socialize while working and I don't date people from work. I've seen what happens when you do and I don't want to be in that kind of situation and it can get very uncomfortable when a relationship doesn't work out.
Well, enough of my lamenting and more tomorrow.
Stay well and stay safe.
Not sure what happened to the day, I suppose that when you intend to do nothing, nothing happens. I didn't get anything done as I said that I would, but then again, I'll try to wake up early and get it done tomorrow. I just can't decide if I should move my license plate from the spot that it is in or just adjust it so that it's more visible.
I suppose when I take a look at it tomorrow, I'll have a clearer idea of what I want to do to it.
Living life without someone to share it is pretty lonely. I don't know if I had mentioned it in my online journal, but for some reason, I just can't find anyone. There have been a couple of women that I have dated but have not been able to find anyone for the long term. I think the longest I've been with anyone was about 3 months. At times I wonder if its something that I'm doing or if it's just the type of women that either I'm attracted to or are attracted to me. I also wonder if its the places that I visit that I can't find someone.
I suppose that it could also be related to the type of work that I'm involved with. With the type of work, I seem to get assigned areas that are not of the highest quality. Even though I'm working for a quality employer, my location doesn't allow me to interact with the public directly, so it doesn't give me the opportunity to meet women.
Then again, my personal standards are that I don't socialize while working and I don't date people from work. I've seen what happens when you do and I don't want to be in that kind of situation and it can get very uncomfortable when a relationship doesn't work out.
Well, enough of my lamenting and more tomorrow.
Stay well and stay safe.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
When days turn into nights
Mood: not sure
Not sure what happened today, but it was better than it dragging on. I guess I'll save more information for tomorrow.
Oh, I just remembered what I wanted to say, well, I ordered a leather case for my Zen Micro direct from Creative Labs, I selected 2nd day air. Now, I had placed this order on Friday and figured that it wouldn't get shipped till Monday, well, when I checked my order, the status was still pending. That was over the weekend and on Monday. So on Tuesday, I emailed Customer Service to see what was happening with my order. Well, they emailed me back with a tracking number and said that it was shipped on Tuesday.
Ok, so I figured that I may not get my order until Thursday or Friday. Anyway, I emailed them again after trying to check the location of my order through UPS, well, when I went to the CL website, my order was still showing in pending status. I emailed them again to ask them where my order was, well, their reply was that it takes up to 24 hours before it shows up in the system. However, my previous order showed up in the system the day that they shipped my order and that was shipped by ground.
So not expecting my order till later, my phone rings and it's the UPS guy saying that he has a package for me. After signing for my package, I noticed that it was shipped express (overnite), so apparently someone there messed up. I think I need to hit um up for a discount for their mistake...
I'll see if I am able to when they send their reply.
Stay well and Stay Safe...
Not sure what happened today, but it was better than it dragging on. I guess I'll save more information for tomorrow.
Oh, I just remembered what I wanted to say, well, I ordered a leather case for my Zen Micro direct from Creative Labs, I selected 2nd day air. Now, I had placed this order on Friday and figured that it wouldn't get shipped till Monday, well, when I checked my order, the status was still pending. That was over the weekend and on Monday. So on Tuesday, I emailed Customer Service to see what was happening with my order. Well, they emailed me back with a tracking number and said that it was shipped on Tuesday.
Ok, so I figured that I may not get my order until Thursday or Friday. Anyway, I emailed them again after trying to check the location of my order through UPS, well, when I went to the CL website, my order was still showing in pending status. I emailed them again to ask them where my order was, well, their reply was that it takes up to 24 hours before it shows up in the system. However, my previous order showed up in the system the day that they shipped my order and that was shipped by ground.
So not expecting my order till later, my phone rings and it's the UPS guy saying that he has a package for me. After signing for my package, I noticed that it was shipped express (overnite), so apparently someone there messed up. I think I need to hit um up for a discount for their mistake...
I'll see if I am able to when they send their reply.
Stay well and Stay Safe...
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
The Elusive Answers...
Mood: quizzical
Since yesterday, I've been dwelling on that heat thing and haven't been able to find any answers, even close to it since then. Its slowly beginning to consume my thoughts. I've been also trying to keep from doing anything and have been avoiding contact with anyone. Yesterday was a pretty frustrating one.
This year, I've been able to submit my taxes, last year wasn't a very good year for me, especially since I was pretty much unemployed with no income for the first part of the year, the previous year I was out of work for almost a whole year and didn't have any funds to pay taxes at all. I hate having to not be able to pay my taxes or my bills and was almost kicked out of my apartment and having to live on the streets. I don't have to tell you I was a bit nervous about the whole situation, but somehow I had a feeling that it would somehow work itself out.
Since I'll be off tomorrow as well, I have to figure out what I'm going to do with the car and how to get the license plate to show properly. Last night I was pulled over by an officer, apparently he remembered me from when I worked at the department and let me continue on my way with just a warning.
I also have to make my way over to the DMV and get a pin number so that I can view my driving records online. I've been planning on it and thinking about it for a while, but haven't gone yet, either because I forgot or I didn't feel like it. I'm planning to walk there since its not too far from here. Also, today I walked to the grocery store and began getting back into shape so tomorrow will be my continuation of my goal.
Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll write again tomorrow, till then, stay well and stay safe.
Since yesterday, I've been dwelling on that heat thing and haven't been able to find any answers, even close to it since then. Its slowly beginning to consume my thoughts. I've been also trying to keep from doing anything and have been avoiding contact with anyone. Yesterday was a pretty frustrating one.
This year, I've been able to submit my taxes, last year wasn't a very good year for me, especially since I was pretty much unemployed with no income for the first part of the year, the previous year I was out of work for almost a whole year and didn't have any funds to pay taxes at all. I hate having to not be able to pay my taxes or my bills and was almost kicked out of my apartment and having to live on the streets. I don't have to tell you I was a bit nervous about the whole situation, but somehow I had a feeling that it would somehow work itself out.
Since I'll be off tomorrow as well, I have to figure out what I'm going to do with the car and how to get the license plate to show properly. Last night I was pulled over by an officer, apparently he remembered me from when I worked at the department and let me continue on my way with just a warning.
I also have to make my way over to the DMV and get a pin number so that I can view my driving records online. I've been planning on it and thinking about it for a while, but haven't gone yet, either because I forgot or I didn't feel like it. I'm planning to walk there since its not too far from here. Also, today I walked to the grocery store and began getting back into shape so tomorrow will be my continuation of my goal.
Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll write again tomorrow, till then, stay well and stay safe.
Hmmm.... What? Who?
Mood: chillin'
Well, can't say much about the day, but it was at the end of my day that kind of up for it. Actually it started with the ride into work. At one of the stops that the bus made that I take into work, a very pretty woman sat next to me on the bus, usually I wouldn't think much about it, mostly because there might not have been any other seats available, but there was something that made me notice her.
I'll explain somethings that will lead up to what it was. At times I can feel other people's body heat, mostly I notice just random pockets of heat. I once noticed it at a friends house and mentioned it to him and he kind of got spooked. Anyway, after the woman sat down next to me, I could feel a strong heat source, I know it wasn't from the bus because it wasn't there until she sat next to me. The way I could especially tell was I could feel the heat from a particular direction and it wasn't a pocket of warmth. I was sitting next to the wall of the right side of the bus so that the seat on my left was available. The warmth only came in a narrow area and only from her direction.
Later a seat became available and she continued to sit next to me and ended up getting off at the same stop, but ended up going in different directions. After that incident, I tried to see if I could find any information on the net, but so far haven't been able to find anything specifically to that. If I do find any information, I'll try to make sure I add it here.
Anyway, at the end of the day after getting to my car, I decided to make a stop at the convenience store and pick up a couple of things. After walking in and walking towards the coolers, I noticed a very attractive young woman standing in front of the cooler, just looking in as if she was trying to decide on what to get. As I approached, she looked towards me, just standing there and somewhat lingered her look at me. She was about 5'5', with shoulder length black hair, dark eyes.
Eventually she turned her attention back to the cooler.
I went around a shelf to get to the other side of her to get to the soda I wanted. She kinda stood there, didn't move until I reached for the door to the cooler, then she moved. After getting what I wanted, I walked to another cooler and got something else and walked over to the counter to pay for my items. As I was standing at the counter, I eventually noticed that she had moved from the cooler to an isle inbetween 2 shelves. As I turned to look, I caught her looking at me, but at the time, I had assumed that the guy filling up his truck outside was with her. After paying for my things, I walked out of the store as the guy walked in.
I think that if I wasn't so shy and was a bit more of an extrovert, I would've walked over and talked with her. However being the shy person I was, walked out and went home. Well, anyway, that was the highlight of my day, besides having the 2 beers after getting home.
Till my next entry, stay well and stay safe.
Well, can't say much about the day, but it was at the end of my day that kind of up for it. Actually it started with the ride into work. At one of the stops that the bus made that I take into work, a very pretty woman sat next to me on the bus, usually I wouldn't think much about it, mostly because there might not have been any other seats available, but there was something that made me notice her.
I'll explain somethings that will lead up to what it was. At times I can feel other people's body heat, mostly I notice just random pockets of heat. I once noticed it at a friends house and mentioned it to him and he kind of got spooked. Anyway, after the woman sat down next to me, I could feel a strong heat source, I know it wasn't from the bus because it wasn't there until she sat next to me. The way I could especially tell was I could feel the heat from a particular direction and it wasn't a pocket of warmth. I was sitting next to the wall of the right side of the bus so that the seat on my left was available. The warmth only came in a narrow area and only from her direction.
Later a seat became available and she continued to sit next to me and ended up getting off at the same stop, but ended up going in different directions. After that incident, I tried to see if I could find any information on the net, but so far haven't been able to find anything specifically to that. If I do find any information, I'll try to make sure I add it here.
Anyway, at the end of the day after getting to my car, I decided to make a stop at the convenience store and pick up a couple of things. After walking in and walking towards the coolers, I noticed a very attractive young woman standing in front of the cooler, just looking in as if she was trying to decide on what to get. As I approached, she looked towards me, just standing there and somewhat lingered her look at me. She was about 5'5', with shoulder length black hair, dark eyes.
Eventually she turned her attention back to the cooler.
I went around a shelf to get to the other side of her to get to the soda I wanted. She kinda stood there, didn't move until I reached for the door to the cooler, then she moved. After getting what I wanted, I walked to another cooler and got something else and walked over to the counter to pay for my items. As I was standing at the counter, I eventually noticed that she had moved from the cooler to an isle inbetween 2 shelves. As I turned to look, I caught her looking at me, but at the time, I had assumed that the guy filling up his truck outside was with her. After paying for my things, I walked out of the store as the guy walked in.
I think that if I wasn't so shy and was a bit more of an extrovert, I would've walked over and talked with her. However being the shy person I was, walked out and went home. Well, anyway, that was the highlight of my day, besides having the 2 beers after getting home.
Till my next entry, stay well and stay safe.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Oops...
Mood: a-ok
That'll teach me to pay closer attention to what I'm doing, I was writing about cooking and some other things, but lost it when I was trying to multi-task. I'll save it for my next entry.
Other than that, it was a slow day. It went by pretty fast, I guess I was in a daze throughout the day. I suppose if I remember, I'll add it...
Till then, stay safe and stay well...
That'll teach me to pay closer attention to what I'm doing, I was writing about cooking and some other things, but lost it when I was trying to multi-task. I'll save it for my next entry.
Other than that, it was a slow day. It went by pretty fast, I guess I was in a daze throughout the day. I suppose if I remember, I'll add it...
Till then, stay safe and stay well...
Somewhere over the Rainbow...
Mood: not sure
If I could dedicate a song to some of the world events, the one song I would choose would be Somewhere over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World by Iz, especially to the Pope, John Paul. If you listen to the word very carefully, you'll see what I mean, not to mention the person singing the song makes for a very perfect dedication.
All in all, the day has come and gone, with nothing extraordinary happening in my life, but then again, what is extraordinary? That could all depend on what you do for a living, what a typical day maybe like or just something happening out of the blue. If that were the case, then I would have to say nothing is happening, although reminiscing back to when I worked at the treatment center...
It was my first week there and towards the end of my first week, there was a detox admit that was being transported in from a neighboring city, per the staff and over the radio, they said that the person was uncooperative, meaning he was making a bit of a fuss.
Well after they arrived, the admit was very cooperative up until after they interviewed the person and he flat out didn't want to move because he was missing his wallet, well, while the staff was interviewing him, I took a couple of minutes to check out the squad that he was transported in, it wasn't the usual type, the Ford Interceptors, but a Dodge Intrepid squad. Those vehicles have a lot of room for the person in the back when being transported, compared to the Interceptors.
Anyway, the staff finally decided to put him in the "quiet" room for uncooperative admits. The nurse in charge looked at me and said, ok, escort him to the room, well, when I grabbed his arm in an escort hold and picked him up from the chair, he had spun around on me and decided he was going to fight. I wasn't thinking of what I was doing and everything happened automatically because I was thinking of the safety of the nurses, I had grabbed his throat by the larynx and pushed him up against the wall.
I realized after about a minute what I was doing and released my hold and backed up a little, at this point he was going to fight from being put into the quiet room and while being held by the nurses, started to kick, but because of my distance, he wasn't able to connect.
Well, I was going to attempt a arm bar take down and my hand slipped from the back of his upper arm and slid under my armpit. I started thinking about what I could do to bring this person down to the ground and also the safety of the nurses, so at the time, I thought "I'll drop straight down and let my weight help bring him down".
Sure enough, with my weight, I was able to pull him down to the ground. As he hit the ground, the 2 nurses that were there had jumped on his back to hold him down and I kept holding onto his arm using my full weight. The 3rd nurse present started yelling "call a Dr. Black". At that point, I felt that he was under control so I decided I was going to cuff him, so I took out my hinged cuffs and made an attempt to cuff him on the wrist of the arm that I was holding. At first, I thought I forgot to disengage the double lock and not thinking, let go of his wrist. That gave him the opportunity to grab onto the cuffs.
When he grabbed on, I wasn't going to let go because he could use them as a weapon, the admit then started saying that he could take them from me, but because of the martial arts training, with all the twisting he was trying, it wasn't budging. I told him that he wasn't going to take them from me and no matter how much he tried, it wasn't going to happen.
He finally realized that I was right and gave up, I was able to handcuff him from the back. During the struggle, his pants got pulled down. Anyway, after I got the cuffs on him, I helped him up and escorted him into the quiet room and sat him down in the restraint chair (no, he wasn't restrained). After getting him into the chair, someone from outside of the room said something that I couldn't hear and thought they were talking to me, so I walked to the door and looked out.
Well, when I turned back to look at the admit, he had stood up and was able to move his handcuffed hands from the back to the front and pulling up his pants. The nurse then came into the room and told him to sit. The admit then replied that he wasn't going to sit until he got his wallet back and that he also wanted to talk to his lawyer, the nurse told him to sit down, which he started to get violent again and refused.
I walked over to him, put my hand on his shoulder and while pushing him down into the chair, told him the nurse said to sit down. Well, he decided to fight again, at this point, my martial arts training kicked in again, I didn't realize that my hand went from his left shoulder to his right while I was facing him and the blade of my forearm slid up to his throat and I started to add pressure. I didn't realize that I was doing this until I heard the nurse call my name.
By that time, I looked at his face and it had turned beet red and his eyes started to roll up into his head. I released the pressure and was able to hold him down into the chair until the rest of the treatment center staff arrived, at that point, my face was about 6 inches away and he started to threaten me saying things like "you fat bi**h, you fat bi**h, I'm going to kill you, I was in XXXX for 36 months, you fat bi**h, I'll kill you".
At that point, I lost it and blew him a kiss, which really wasn't professional at all but got him even more upset. By that time, the rest of the staff arrived and the nurse told me to take a walk.
Whew, that was a long one... I'll end this here and write more things that happened there... anyway, stay safe and stay well...
If I could dedicate a song to some of the world events, the one song I would choose would be Somewhere over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World by Iz, especially to the Pope, John Paul. If you listen to the word very carefully, you'll see what I mean, not to mention the person singing the song makes for a very perfect dedication.
All in all, the day has come and gone, with nothing extraordinary happening in my life, but then again, what is extraordinary? That could all depend on what you do for a living, what a typical day maybe like or just something happening out of the blue. If that were the case, then I would have to say nothing is happening, although reminiscing back to when I worked at the treatment center...
It was my first week there and towards the end of my first week, there was a detox admit that was being transported in from a neighboring city, per the staff and over the radio, they said that the person was uncooperative, meaning he was making a bit of a fuss.
Well after they arrived, the admit was very cooperative up until after they interviewed the person and he flat out didn't want to move because he was missing his wallet, well, while the staff was interviewing him, I took a couple of minutes to check out the squad that he was transported in, it wasn't the usual type, the Ford Interceptors, but a Dodge Intrepid squad. Those vehicles have a lot of room for the person in the back when being transported, compared to the Interceptors.
Anyway, the staff finally decided to put him in the "quiet" room for uncooperative admits. The nurse in charge looked at me and said, ok, escort him to the room, well, when I grabbed his arm in an escort hold and picked him up from the chair, he had spun around on me and decided he was going to fight. I wasn't thinking of what I was doing and everything happened automatically because I was thinking of the safety of the nurses, I had grabbed his throat by the larynx and pushed him up against the wall.
I realized after about a minute what I was doing and released my hold and backed up a little, at this point he was going to fight from being put into the quiet room and while being held by the nurses, started to kick, but because of my distance, he wasn't able to connect.
Well, I was going to attempt a arm bar take down and my hand slipped from the back of his upper arm and slid under my armpit. I started thinking about what I could do to bring this person down to the ground and also the safety of the nurses, so at the time, I thought "I'll drop straight down and let my weight help bring him down".
Sure enough, with my weight, I was able to pull him down to the ground. As he hit the ground, the 2 nurses that were there had jumped on his back to hold him down and I kept holding onto his arm using my full weight. The 3rd nurse present started yelling "call a Dr. Black". At that point, I felt that he was under control so I decided I was going to cuff him, so I took out my hinged cuffs and made an attempt to cuff him on the wrist of the arm that I was holding. At first, I thought I forgot to disengage the double lock and not thinking, let go of his wrist. That gave him the opportunity to grab onto the cuffs.
When he grabbed on, I wasn't going to let go because he could use them as a weapon, the admit then started saying that he could take them from me, but because of the martial arts training, with all the twisting he was trying, it wasn't budging. I told him that he wasn't going to take them from me and no matter how much he tried, it wasn't going to happen.
He finally realized that I was right and gave up, I was able to handcuff him from the back. During the struggle, his pants got pulled down. Anyway, after I got the cuffs on him, I helped him up and escorted him into the quiet room and sat him down in the restraint chair (no, he wasn't restrained). After getting him into the chair, someone from outside of the room said something that I couldn't hear and thought they were talking to me, so I walked to the door and looked out.
Well, when I turned back to look at the admit, he had stood up and was able to move his handcuffed hands from the back to the front and pulling up his pants. The nurse then came into the room and told him to sit. The admit then replied that he wasn't going to sit until he got his wallet back and that he also wanted to talk to his lawyer, the nurse told him to sit down, which he started to get violent again and refused.
I walked over to him, put my hand on his shoulder and while pushing him down into the chair, told him the nurse said to sit down. Well, he decided to fight again, at this point, my martial arts training kicked in again, I didn't realize that my hand went from his left shoulder to his right while I was facing him and the blade of my forearm slid up to his throat and I started to add pressure. I didn't realize that I was doing this until I heard the nurse call my name.
By that time, I looked at his face and it had turned beet red and his eyes started to roll up into his head. I released the pressure and was able to hold him down into the chair until the rest of the treatment center staff arrived, at that point, my face was about 6 inches away and he started to threaten me saying things like "you fat bi**h, you fat bi**h, I'm going to kill you, I was in XXXX for 36 months, you fat bi**h, I'll kill you".
At that point, I lost it and blew him a kiss, which really wasn't professional at all but got him even more upset. By that time, the rest of the staff arrived and the nurse told me to take a walk.
Whew, that was a long one... I'll end this here and write more things that happened there... anyway, stay safe and stay well...
Friday, April 01, 2005
Star Date -318249.2
Mood: not sure
Well, another day has come and gone and I'm still working with a limited amount of space on my hard drive. Today at work, the atmosphere was a bit different, I guess being that it was April 1st, the day of fools or however you want to look at it, I couldn't put my finger on the feeling.
Once again, I couldn't sleep very well and as usual, I woke up pretty tired. It also may not have helped that I woke up at least 3 times during the night. On the positive side, today was payday and I did get my rent paid, or at least dropped off at the rental office. The other thing that I've noticed is that Samantha has been wanting so much attention lately... She seems a lot more lonely lately and always wants to lay on my lap or lay close to me. Like right now, she's laying on my lap as I type my journal, happy as all she can.
After work tonight, I rushed home so that I could catch the season finale of Battlestar Galactica but I had to stop off at the grocery store so that I could have some stuff for at least the weekend. I also just ordered a leather case for my Zen Micro, so far I have at least 400 plus songs on it and so far I have the songs lists created for the different decades that the songs first came out.
Even though my computer rebooted in the middle of synch'ing Outlook and my phone, I'm feeling pretty content tonight. Maybe it's because that it's payday and I was able to get at least one bill paid, I'm sure later during the upcoming week as well as the following week the other bills will arrive, I'll be all set and ready to pay them for the month.
The other thing I've noticed lately is that my work ethics have improved, I guess being without a job and worrying about having money will improve ones attitude about work as well as ones responsibility.
Also, I'm slowly able to save up some money just in case, I do have to admit, that usually I spend all of my paycheck within the first couple of days and pretty much suffer until the next. I'm determined not to be in that kind of situation again and to always have extra money just in case. I just hope that I can stick to it...
When it comes to money, I'm usually an impulsive spender... very bad... Anyway, I'll end my entry here and make a new entry tomorrow. Feel free to comment or ask questions. All will be answered in a timely fashion. Just remember, there are no stupid questions, just curious people.
Till then, stay safe and stay well!
Well, another day has come and gone and I'm still working with a limited amount of space on my hard drive. Today at work, the atmosphere was a bit different, I guess being that it was April 1st, the day of fools or however you want to look at it, I couldn't put my finger on the feeling.
Once again, I couldn't sleep very well and as usual, I woke up pretty tired. It also may not have helped that I woke up at least 3 times during the night. On the positive side, today was payday and I did get my rent paid, or at least dropped off at the rental office. The other thing that I've noticed is that Samantha has been wanting so much attention lately... She seems a lot more lonely lately and always wants to lay on my lap or lay close to me. Like right now, she's laying on my lap as I type my journal, happy as all she can.
After work tonight, I rushed home so that I could catch the season finale of Battlestar Galactica but I had to stop off at the grocery store so that I could have some stuff for at least the weekend. I also just ordered a leather case for my Zen Micro, so far I have at least 400 plus songs on it and so far I have the songs lists created for the different decades that the songs first came out.
Even though my computer rebooted in the middle of synch'ing Outlook and my phone, I'm feeling pretty content tonight. Maybe it's because that it's payday and I was able to get at least one bill paid, I'm sure later during the upcoming week as well as the following week the other bills will arrive, I'll be all set and ready to pay them for the month.
The other thing I've noticed lately is that my work ethics have improved, I guess being without a job and worrying about having money will improve ones attitude about work as well as ones responsibility.
Also, I'm slowly able to save up some money just in case, I do have to admit, that usually I spend all of my paycheck within the first couple of days and pretty much suffer until the next. I'm determined not to be in that kind of situation again and to always have extra money just in case. I just hope that I can stick to it...
When it comes to money, I'm usually an impulsive spender... very bad... Anyway, I'll end my entry here and make a new entry tomorrow. Feel free to comment or ask questions. All will be answered in a timely fashion. Just remember, there are no stupid questions, just curious people.
Till then, stay safe and stay well!
Sometimes Ignorance is bliss...
Mood: not sure
Talk about doing nothing and being lazy, that was pretty much my whole day. Other than working on my personal project, I didn't do anything as I had planned all day. I stayed inside on such a really nice day, didn't hear anything from the idiots downstairs and between watching Battlestar Galactica (the classic series) and some other shows, which I don't remember.
I did spend some time reflecting on the past and the people that I had been involved with. The thing that I've thought about is that either they want to have a better life or they don't want to, but the thing is, you have to work hard in order to get things, it just doesn't get handed to you, unless your really rich. However that's not the point.
It was once said, there is an easy way and a hard way, people that get involved with drugs or criminal activity try to take the easy route, while those who don't, take the difficult path. Sure you can take drugs to deal with hardships and reality, but those who don't will try to work through them and those who do work through them will be the stronger and better person. Same with criminals, you can do things to have money quickly, but there is no honor or pride in being able to earn that money. This is especially true when I get my paycheck, I feel really good about it because I earned that money and deserved it for the efforts that I had put into earning it.
With this way, I can hold my head up and be able to go anywhere without having to worry about a thing, when I buy groceries, I can just about get anything that I want, when I purchase software, electronic items or other merchandise, I can do so because I EARNED the money to be able to purchase those items. I can feel good about being able to pay my bills and to be able to pay them on time or go out and go to a movie, bar, restaurant or whatever and have the funds to do it.
Well, I guess I'll end this entry for now and hope that those who come to these pages return again. Till then, stay safe and stay well.
Talk about doing nothing and being lazy, that was pretty much my whole day. Other than working on my personal project, I didn't do anything as I had planned all day. I stayed inside on such a really nice day, didn't hear anything from the idiots downstairs and between watching Battlestar Galactica (the classic series) and some other shows, which I don't remember.
I did spend some time reflecting on the past and the people that I had been involved with. The thing that I've thought about is that either they want to have a better life or they don't want to, but the thing is, you have to work hard in order to get things, it just doesn't get handed to you, unless your really rich. However that's not the point.
It was once said, there is an easy way and a hard way, people that get involved with drugs or criminal activity try to take the easy route, while those who don't, take the difficult path. Sure you can take drugs to deal with hardships and reality, but those who don't will try to work through them and those who do work through them will be the stronger and better person. Same with criminals, you can do things to have money quickly, but there is no honor or pride in being able to earn that money. This is especially true when I get my paycheck, I feel really good about it because I earned that money and deserved it for the efforts that I had put into earning it.
With this way, I can hold my head up and be able to go anywhere without having to worry about a thing, when I buy groceries, I can just about get anything that I want, when I purchase software, electronic items or other merchandise, I can do so because I EARNED the money to be able to purchase those items. I can feel good about being able to pay my bills and to be able to pay them on time or go out and go to a movie, bar, restaurant or whatever and have the funds to do it.
Well, I guess I'll end this entry for now and hope that those who come to these pages return again. Till then, stay safe and stay well.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
When days turn into weeks...
Mood: not sure
Today has been one big blur, I guess it doesn't help with the weather being the way it is, all dark and grey. I woke up this morning and being so dark as it were, I thought it was about 0700, after looking at the clock, it was actually 0930. I was still feeling pretty tired and sleepy, so I kind of just went through the day in a daze. I did work a little on my personal project and almost got through the 60's, but there is still a lot of music to look up.
Later, in the middle of April, I have to look into getting new hard drives for my computer. I think I'm down to about 5 gigs again. I don't know how much longer my drive is able to keep going at that capacity.
Tonight, I finally went grocery shopping, was out of food. At the local grocery store, they started carrying Ramune soft drinks. I know I mentioned this in an earlier entry, but I just had to mention it again.
It's been about a week and I'm still having trouble getting a good nights sleep. I don't know what could be causing this, I wonder if its because of the neighbors downstairs, some issues with ghosts in my past, because of not being able to release my stress or because of something deeper and darker than I realize what it maybe. Whatever maybe causing it, I have to try to get a good nights sleep soon or else it'll effect my work performance and my attitude at work and socially, if I didn't have to deal with people or do the type of work that I do, I wouldn't have to think about it.
Most of the time, making journal entries help me calm my spirit and my mind, but there are somethings that writing or entering journal entries don't help, neither does talking about it. I'll figure something out.
Till then, I hope that all who reads these entries stay well and stay safe.
Today has been one big blur, I guess it doesn't help with the weather being the way it is, all dark and grey. I woke up this morning and being so dark as it were, I thought it was about 0700, after looking at the clock, it was actually 0930. I was still feeling pretty tired and sleepy, so I kind of just went through the day in a daze. I did work a little on my personal project and almost got through the 60's, but there is still a lot of music to look up.
Later, in the middle of April, I have to look into getting new hard drives for my computer. I think I'm down to about 5 gigs again. I don't know how much longer my drive is able to keep going at that capacity.
Tonight, I finally went grocery shopping, was out of food. At the local grocery store, they started carrying Ramune soft drinks. I know I mentioned this in an earlier entry, but I just had to mention it again.
It's been about a week and I'm still having trouble getting a good nights sleep. I don't know what could be causing this, I wonder if its because of the neighbors downstairs, some issues with ghosts in my past, because of not being able to release my stress or because of something deeper and darker than I realize what it maybe. Whatever maybe causing it, I have to try to get a good nights sleep soon or else it'll effect my work performance and my attitude at work and socially, if I didn't have to deal with people or do the type of work that I do, I wouldn't have to think about it.
Most of the time, making journal entries help me calm my spirit and my mind, but there are somethings that writing or entering journal entries don't help, neither does talking about it. I'll figure something out.
Till then, I hope that all who reads these entries stay well and stay safe.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
What ever happened to yesterday?
Mood: not sure
Today I lost track of time, it seems like the days are just running together. I haven't been sleeping very well and am not sure why. I've been trying to keep myself busy when I'm not at work so I won't get depressed. What i've been doing is looking up all the songs that I have and putting in dates as well as the original album that the song was first released on.
It may take a while since I have a lot of songs, songs that bring back memories of certain days, times, places and people. When I was younger, back in grade school, I used to keep a kind of journal of the different songs that I liked. As far back as I can remember, music has always been a part of my life. There hasn't been a time when I didn't listen to a song or the radio.
If anything else, music has been the one and only constant thing in my life. In a way, it kind of sounds like a song by Hellen Reddy called Angie Baby, the only difference is that the song is about a female.
Well, I'll keep this entry short and follow up with a new entry for tomorrow. Stay well and stay safe.
Today I lost track of time, it seems like the days are just running together. I haven't been sleeping very well and am not sure why. I've been trying to keep myself busy when I'm not at work so I won't get depressed. What i've been doing is looking up all the songs that I have and putting in dates as well as the original album that the song was first released on.
It may take a while since I have a lot of songs, songs that bring back memories of certain days, times, places and people. When I was younger, back in grade school, I used to keep a kind of journal of the different songs that I liked. As far back as I can remember, music has always been a part of my life. There hasn't been a time when I didn't listen to a song or the radio.
If anything else, music has been the one and only constant thing in my life. In a way, it kind of sounds like a song by Hellen Reddy called Angie Baby, the only difference is that the song is about a female.
Well, I'll keep this entry short and follow up with a new entry for tomorrow. Stay well and stay safe.
Monday, March 28, 2005
and the Faithful shall triumph...
Mood: not sure
There are times when I dream about being back in the times of my ancestors, back in the 1700 - 1800's, oh, I know, life meant very little to some and being in the elite class meant everything and hardships were more often than not, certain aspects of those times appeal to me, especially when it comes to dealing with idiots.
There are also times that I wonder what my life would have been like if I had continued on and did join the military, at the time after graduating from high school, I thought about joining the Army and lately I've wondered what it would have been like for me to join the Marine corps. When I think back, I might have gone into Psyops, mostly because of my interest in languages and computers. In 2001, I actually went to see a recruiter to see about enlisting in the Army reserves, if I had continued, I would've been in Psyops. I also think I would have been a lifer as well, when I consider my current situation, it would have been a really good choice.
I think that if I had decided to go into the Marines, I would've either gone into recon or sniper school and being able to work in a solitary manner, I think I would've fit right into that MOS. As several of my friends know, I am able to sleep in any condition, in any environment and also able to function with very little sleep. I don't have any objections to eating anything and can survive on just about anything if I had to. Another thing that would've made me a really good candidate would be also my martial arts skills, but I'm not saying what kind of skills or which art I've studied.
It wasn't too bad of a day at work, but some of the work ethics of my "co" workers are really starting to get on my nerves. At work, there are people that complain about some people that don't do the work that their supposed to, but when it comes to themselves they do exactly the thing that they complain about. Today, there was an issue that a person was dealing with and all they do is open tickets, but when it comes to following up on it as to why its not doing what its supposed to do, they leave it the way it is and let the other people deal with it, which makes more work for others, but why should they care, its not them, right?
Another issue is on certian days its really busy with a lot of people calling in because of the issues their having either equipment, signons or network, on those days, I end up taking the most calls and no one else comes even close to the number of calls that I take, not by 30 to 50 calls. All their concerned about is not having to answer the phones because their "working" on issues of equipment, so they have at least 130 tickets opened or worked on open tickets and basically said "screw the people calling in". Then they wonder why people either complain about them or why the others don't help them out with updates.
The updates can wait! You try dealing with someone that was waiting on hold for about 15 to 30 minutes and there are about 10 to 15 people waiting to talk to someone because either their having equipment issues or are unable to login or whatever that will hold them back from doing their work. At that point the users are pretty pissed off and for the person that answers the phone, has to deal with them.
Anyway enough of that... now for something a little more pleasent, I find that by keeping a journal helps me deal with these things and also coming home to Samantha... Well anyway, I'll end my journal here, I hope that those who read my journal stay safe and stay well...
There are times when I dream about being back in the times of my ancestors, back in the 1700 - 1800's, oh, I know, life meant very little to some and being in the elite class meant everything and hardships were more often than not, certain aspects of those times appeal to me, especially when it comes to dealing with idiots.
There are also times that I wonder what my life would have been like if I had continued on and did join the military, at the time after graduating from high school, I thought about joining the Army and lately I've wondered what it would have been like for me to join the Marine corps. When I think back, I might have gone into Psyops, mostly because of my interest in languages and computers. In 2001, I actually went to see a recruiter to see about enlisting in the Army reserves, if I had continued, I would've been in Psyops. I also think I would have been a lifer as well, when I consider my current situation, it would have been a really good choice.
I think that if I had decided to go into the Marines, I would've either gone into recon or sniper school and being able to work in a solitary manner, I think I would've fit right into that MOS. As several of my friends know, I am able to sleep in any condition, in any environment and also able to function with very little sleep. I don't have any objections to eating anything and can survive on just about anything if I had to. Another thing that would've made me a really good candidate would be also my martial arts skills, but I'm not saying what kind of skills or which art I've studied.
It wasn't too bad of a day at work, but some of the work ethics of my "co" workers are really starting to get on my nerves. At work, there are people that complain about some people that don't do the work that their supposed to, but when it comes to themselves they do exactly the thing that they complain about. Today, there was an issue that a person was dealing with and all they do is open tickets, but when it comes to following up on it as to why its not doing what its supposed to do, they leave it the way it is and let the other people deal with it, which makes more work for others, but why should they care, its not them, right?
Another issue is on certian days its really busy with a lot of people calling in because of the issues their having either equipment, signons or network, on those days, I end up taking the most calls and no one else comes even close to the number of calls that I take, not by 30 to 50 calls. All their concerned about is not having to answer the phones because their "working" on issues of equipment, so they have at least 130 tickets opened or worked on open tickets and basically said "screw the people calling in". Then they wonder why people either complain about them or why the others don't help them out with updates.
The updates can wait! You try dealing with someone that was waiting on hold for about 15 to 30 minutes and there are about 10 to 15 people waiting to talk to someone because either their having equipment issues or are unable to login or whatever that will hold them back from doing their work. At that point the users are pretty pissed off and for the person that answers the phone, has to deal with them.
Anyway enough of that... now for something a little more pleasent, I find that by keeping a journal helps me deal with these things and also coming home to Samantha... Well anyway, I'll end my journal here, I hope that those who read my journal stay safe and stay well...
Sunday, March 27, 2005
What day is this?
Mood: not sure
Well, another holiday has come and gone and the idiots below me are really getting on my nerves, as well as the other residents here. The thing is, most of them come to me thinking that I can do something about it. The reality is, I can't. Although I might just do something soon if they don't cut out their thumping and fighting.
Last night, at about 0300, they were yelling at each other, AT 0300 IN THE MORNING! They need to get a clue, I'm really getting upset and about ready to keep them up all night for the next week, also I'll be talking with the rental office. I already called the police on them once when they were really screaming at each other. I'm sure they knew who called. Normally I don't like to swear, but lately when I've been getting really upset, I've been swearing a lot, but Sh**, grow the F*** Up you little S***s!
You want to play grown up and have a child, live in on your own and live with each other, then why don't you F***ing act like F***ing adults. Have some F***ing consideration for the other F***ing people that also live around you. I'm really getting to the point as to where I just want to go down there and slap them silly to see if that'll make a difference.
Anyway, other than them, it was a pretty quiet day, worked my overtime shift, not very many people on the roads, those who were, were driving like idiots.
I know that I hold a lot of emotions in and at times I just need to find a way to let them out, but I feel that I don't know anyone that I'm really close with that I could. I should start going to the health club real soon so that I can work out these issues or it'll eat me up or I just might go on my impluses and deal with the idiots downstairs, which wouldn't be good...
I guess all in all, I'm just a social introvert and at times I just wished that I was a social extrovert like some of the people that I know, but I've been this way for so long, I wouldn't know how to act or deal with people. I guess that's one of the reasons why I enjoy working as a reserve police officer, I can act like a social extrovert (or as some people might see it as being a jerk) and not have to worry about it or really think about it.
The other thing is to get deep into my music, with music, I can loose myself and not have to deal with reality (yes, I know that's not a good way to deal with things, but growing up, that's all I had as a constant in my life).
Well, enough for now, I hope that everyone stays safe and stays well.
Well, another holiday has come and gone and the idiots below me are really getting on my nerves, as well as the other residents here. The thing is, most of them come to me thinking that I can do something about it. The reality is, I can't. Although I might just do something soon if they don't cut out their thumping and fighting.
Last night, at about 0300, they were yelling at each other, AT 0300 IN THE MORNING! They need to get a clue, I'm really getting upset and about ready to keep them up all night for the next week, also I'll be talking with the rental office. I already called the police on them once when they were really screaming at each other. I'm sure they knew who called. Normally I don't like to swear, but lately when I've been getting really upset, I've been swearing a lot, but Sh**, grow the F*** Up you little S***s!
You want to play grown up and have a child, live in on your own and live with each other, then why don't you F***ing act like F***ing adults. Have some F***ing consideration for the other F***ing people that also live around you. I'm really getting to the point as to where I just want to go down there and slap them silly to see if that'll make a difference.
Anyway, other than them, it was a pretty quiet day, worked my overtime shift, not very many people on the roads, those who were, were driving like idiots.
I know that I hold a lot of emotions in and at times I just need to find a way to let them out, but I feel that I don't know anyone that I'm really close with that I could. I should start going to the health club real soon so that I can work out these issues or it'll eat me up or I just might go on my impluses and deal with the idiots downstairs, which wouldn't be good...
I guess all in all, I'm just a social introvert and at times I just wished that I was a social extrovert like some of the people that I know, but I've been this way for so long, I wouldn't know how to act or deal with people. I guess that's one of the reasons why I enjoy working as a reserve police officer, I can act like a social extrovert (or as some people might see it as being a jerk) and not have to worry about it or really think about it.
The other thing is to get deep into my music, with music, I can loose myself and not have to deal with reality (yes, I know that's not a good way to deal with things, but growing up, that's all I had as a constant in my life).
Well, enough for now, I hope that everyone stays safe and stays well.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Too much of a good thing...
Mood: a-ok
Well, after getting my new mp3 player, I've been hitting the mp3 newsgroups pretty hard, mostly the 80's and the the 70's. Well, after finding a lot of songs that I enjoyed during those times, I ended up filling my hard drive and bringing it down to about 3 gigs, which XP decided to choke... during the retrieval of a song that I wanted, my computer rebooted itself and it did this several times.
At this point, I knew that I had ran out of space. I was able to boot into safe mode and ended up having to delete some other files... Ok, I admit it, video files, and we'll just leave it at that. There was about 5 gigs of those which cleared up enough space to boot normally back into windows. Well, needless to say, I went right back at it again and started downloading songs again.
I tried to keep track of how much space I had left, which was still going down. At this point I was about ready to go out and get a new, larger hard drive with the back up funds that I had. One thing for sure, good thing I found all the songs that I wanted... so far...
Well, my good mood on Friday didn't last very long, I was getting upset with calls coming in... what didn't help was that the dingbats that live in the apartment below me feel that it is their sworn duty to pound on the ground so that the whole apartment complex know that their home.
I just don't get it, for a couple that hate each other so much and fight all the time that they still live together. Their not married and it doesn't seem that they have jobs that they could support the both of them and their child. The other thing that I don't understand is why bring up a child in such an environment.
Also the other residents that live around the apartments just don't seem to care about the place that they live. If it were up to me, I would be watching those people and kick them out, secretly, I would like to just slap them upside the head when they do this stuff at night... and for those that decide to sell and use drugs around the area, people just might be hearing some loud noises and finding those people the next day in a broken heap in the parking lot.
Well anyway, I'll step off my soap box... Stay well and stay safe...
Well, after getting my new mp3 player, I've been hitting the mp3 newsgroups pretty hard, mostly the 80's and the the 70's. Well, after finding a lot of songs that I enjoyed during those times, I ended up filling my hard drive and bringing it down to about 3 gigs, which XP decided to choke... during the retrieval of a song that I wanted, my computer rebooted itself and it did this several times.
At this point, I knew that I had ran out of space. I was able to boot into safe mode and ended up having to delete some other files... Ok, I admit it, video files, and we'll just leave it at that. There was about 5 gigs of those which cleared up enough space to boot normally back into windows. Well, needless to say, I went right back at it again and started downloading songs again.
I tried to keep track of how much space I had left, which was still going down. At this point I was about ready to go out and get a new, larger hard drive with the back up funds that I had. One thing for sure, good thing I found all the songs that I wanted... so far...
Well, my good mood on Friday didn't last very long, I was getting upset with calls coming in... what didn't help was that the dingbats that live in the apartment below me feel that it is their sworn duty to pound on the ground so that the whole apartment complex know that their home.
I just don't get it, for a couple that hate each other so much and fight all the time that they still live together. Their not married and it doesn't seem that they have jobs that they could support the both of them and their child. The other thing that I don't understand is why bring up a child in such an environment.
Also the other residents that live around the apartments just don't seem to care about the place that they live. If it were up to me, I would be watching those people and kick them out, secretly, I would like to just slap them upside the head when they do this stuff at night... and for those that decide to sell and use drugs around the area, people just might be hearing some loud noises and finding those people the next day in a broken heap in the parking lot.
Well anyway, I'll step off my soap box... Stay well and stay safe...
Friday, March 25, 2005
No good deed goes unnoticed...
Mood: a-ok
Well, today I did my good deed for the year, while on a break from work, I was standing outside when a couple was walking by and stopped to ask where they could find some assistance with bus fare through a charity group.
I gave as much information as I could, informing him as to where the locations were in Minneapolis, after my instructions he thanked me and started on his way, his companion walked up to me and in a somewhat hushed tone, asked if I could help them out. I thought about the question for a couple of seconds and could see that they could use the help and my feelings about them were that they were being honest in their request, so I pulled out a $20 that I had taken out of the ATM earlier during the day and gave it to her.
I know, I know, they may have been lying, but I figured that my gestures are of honorable intentions and that anything that you do come back to you (yes, I do believe in karma). However, if their intentions were not, then it'll come back to them 3 fold.
I've been looking into having one of my pen-pals come over to the U.S. from Russia. The information is pretty easy to find if your experienced with the net and know exactly what your looking for. I found the information and also the form that I need to fill out which I'll do at home (yes, I am at work as I write this).
I emailed them asking for their last names and addresses, I'll have to email them again getting all the information that is requested on the form before I decide which one of them I would like to come to the states, not only that, but I'll find out who is serious and if they are just trying to scam me.
Lately, I haven't been able to sleep very well, I've noticed this because I've been finding my bedding items all over the room and this morning I found myself sleeping on the floor next to the bed. When I finally did get back into bed, Samantha decided to sleep at the foot of the bed, I found out when I moved my foot and tapped her. Apparently she stayed there for the next hour or so, because when I finally did decide to wake up and get out of bed, she had moved over to her own bed.
On the down side, I've been finding myself thinking back to someone that left my life and tore me up emotionally. I don't know why I still think of her or even care... but anyways, upward and onward.
Oh, I was reading the Honolulu Advertiser online and found out that Legislature is deciding on not having the Honolulu Police Officers pay state tax, the reason behind this is so that they can attract more officers and retain them because of cities that are about the same size of Hawaii that pay about 20 percent more. If this goes through, I would really seriously work towards going back home and apply with the Honolulu Police department.
Well, I guess that's it for now, stay well and stay safe.
Well, today I did my good deed for the year, while on a break from work, I was standing outside when a couple was walking by and stopped to ask where they could find some assistance with bus fare through a charity group.
I gave as much information as I could, informing him as to where the locations were in Minneapolis, after my instructions he thanked me and started on his way, his companion walked up to me and in a somewhat hushed tone, asked if I could help them out. I thought about the question for a couple of seconds and could see that they could use the help and my feelings about them were that they were being honest in their request, so I pulled out a $20 that I had taken out of the ATM earlier during the day and gave it to her.
I know, I know, they may have been lying, but I figured that my gestures are of honorable intentions and that anything that you do come back to you (yes, I do believe in karma). However, if their intentions were not, then it'll come back to them 3 fold.
I've been looking into having one of my pen-pals come over to the U.S. from Russia. The information is pretty easy to find if your experienced with the net and know exactly what your looking for. I found the information and also the form that I need to fill out which I'll do at home (yes, I am at work as I write this).
I emailed them asking for their last names and addresses, I'll have to email them again getting all the information that is requested on the form before I decide which one of them I would like to come to the states, not only that, but I'll find out who is serious and if they are just trying to scam me.
Lately, I haven't been able to sleep very well, I've noticed this because I've been finding my bedding items all over the room and this morning I found myself sleeping on the floor next to the bed. When I finally did get back into bed, Samantha decided to sleep at the foot of the bed, I found out when I moved my foot and tapped her. Apparently she stayed there for the next hour or so, because when I finally did decide to wake up and get out of bed, she had moved over to her own bed.
On the down side, I've been finding myself thinking back to someone that left my life and tore me up emotionally. I don't know why I still think of her or even care... but anyways, upward and onward.
Oh, I was reading the Honolulu Advertiser online and found out that Legislature is deciding on not having the Honolulu Police Officers pay state tax, the reason behind this is so that they can attract more officers and retain them because of cities that are about the same size of Hawaii that pay about 20 percent more. If this goes through, I would really seriously work towards going back home and apply with the Honolulu Police department.
Well, I guess that's it for now, stay well and stay safe.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
and the word is... Oh Joy...
Mood: happy
My new mp3 Player finally arrived, a brand new Creative Zen Micro 5 GB mp3 player. I also have a MuVo TX FM mp3 player as well, I'll keep the other MuVo TX and use it for either transporting large files or just for working out. The other thing that is making me happy is that I also went grocery shopping and picked up Ramune soft drink.
If anyone doesn't know what that is, it's a popular summer soft drink in Japan, the bottle has a glass ball stopper and to open the bottle, it comes with a plunger to push down the glass ball down (which is being held in place by the pressure of the carbonation of the drink). In Japan, you have to finish the drink at the stand that you bought it from because the vendor takes the bottle back to the plant to have the bottles refilled. The flavor of the Ramune is like a melon soda.
It may sound unusual, but I like it better then Pokkari sweat, contrary to what the name is, its a yogurt flavored drink. There are a couple of other refreshments from Japan that I miss, but I try to make do with the ingredients that I can find and try to duplicate it as close as I can.
Today went pretty well, all I did was relax, watch TV and wait for the UPS guy to bring my package. For some reason this morning, I woke up at 0600 and was tired all day, finally fell asleep at around 1600 for about an hour or two after my package arrived.
I do have to go into work tomorrow for my regular shift, I did get called into work for some overtime yesterday so I'm looking forward to my next paycheck, that should give me some extra spending money that I'll try to save or use some of it to get new hard drives for my computer. I'm currently down to about 5 gigs worth of space... not much working room, also I may also put some towards a new DVD RAM drive...
I've been trying to catch some of that new show on adultswim called Robot Chicken, pretty twisted if you ask me, but then again, when you have Seth Green as one of the Executive Producers, it's understandable.
Well, anyway, I'll end my entry here, stay well and stay safe.
My new mp3 Player finally arrived, a brand new Creative Zen Micro 5 GB mp3 player. I also have a MuVo TX FM mp3 player as well, I'll keep the other MuVo TX and use it for either transporting large files or just for working out. The other thing that is making me happy is that I also went grocery shopping and picked up Ramune soft drink.
If anyone doesn't know what that is, it's a popular summer soft drink in Japan, the bottle has a glass ball stopper and to open the bottle, it comes with a plunger to push down the glass ball down (which is being held in place by the pressure of the carbonation of the drink). In Japan, you have to finish the drink at the stand that you bought it from because the vendor takes the bottle back to the plant to have the bottles refilled. The flavor of the Ramune is like a melon soda.
It may sound unusual, but I like it better then Pokkari sweat, contrary to what the name is, its a yogurt flavored drink. There are a couple of other refreshments from Japan that I miss, but I try to make do with the ingredients that I can find and try to duplicate it as close as I can.
Today went pretty well, all I did was relax, watch TV and wait for the UPS guy to bring my package. For some reason this morning, I woke up at 0600 and was tired all day, finally fell asleep at around 1600 for about an hour or two after my package arrived.
I do have to go into work tomorrow for my regular shift, I did get called into work for some overtime yesterday so I'm looking forward to my next paycheck, that should give me some extra spending money that I'll try to save or use some of it to get new hard drives for my computer. I'm currently down to about 5 gigs worth of space... not much working room, also I may also put some towards a new DVD RAM drive...
I've been trying to catch some of that new show on adultswim called Robot Chicken, pretty twisted if you ask me, but then again, when you have Seth Green as one of the Executive Producers, it's understandable.
Well, anyway, I'll end my entry here, stay well and stay safe.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Sub Zero, Scorpion and Baraka all rolled into one...
Mood: not sure
I can identify myself with each character that I have mentioned in my title, if your not familiar with the names, they are the names of characters from a game called Mortal Kombat.
I'll start off explaining in what way I identify with each character, starting with Sub Zero.
Sub Zero - A ninja that has mastered the element of cold. A friend once called me the Ice Man, because when an incident happens that most people would either panic or show some signs of emotion, I don't, I usually appear to be very calm and not show any kind of emotion. Most people who meet me for the first time don't know what to make of me and normally I don't smile or am animated in anyway. I usually keep calm in any situation and am able to think on my feet and react by instinct.
Scorpion - A ninja lost soul, his fighting style is very aggressive, which comes from his only one purpose, revenge. I am in a way like scorpion, a lost soul, a soul without a home, so to speak, a soul that is out of place in a sense. Like Scorpion, my fighting style is usually very aggressive with one purpose, to win. My fighting style, as I was taught, is to kill or be killed, which as a younger man was understandable, but as I grow older, my style has changed a lot. One person that I would be compared to is Yagyuu Tajima No Kami Munenori, in his younger years his quest was to become the best swordsman in Japan, but in his later years that changed, it became the quest for the understanding of the art and the pursuit of intellectual.
Baraka - His fighting style uses 2 blades that project from the back of his forearms. My fighting style is very similar to his, I believe in using 2 weapons at once, but not guns, I don't believe that there is honor in using guns, only as a last result and only one at a time, only in the movies are 2 guns used and in my opinion, is pointless and a quick way of wasting ammunition.
Reptile - His fighting style is to contantly attack and to attack quickly. At times his moves can be deceptive. This is my fighting style as well, because of my size and weight, I am pretty agile and is deceptive to those I've come up against.
I do want to mention that if at all, I don't care to get into a physical confrontation and would prefer to find a peaceful solution, but if it comes to the last resort, then physical confrontation is my last option and I prefer to win at all costs. One other thing that I would like to mention is that when it comes to my family, I will protect them from harm at any cost and if it has to come to someone losing their life, I would prefer to look them in the eyes, up close, by my own hands then to use a gun and not be personal. Once again, it's the honor of the battle.
I know that this may be an extreme idea, but I would rather not have any confrontation come to the final conclusion. Ok, enough said, I'm not crazy, as long as it stays a thought and not reality this is just a way to keep my sanity.
I can identify myself with each character that I have mentioned in my title, if your not familiar with the names, they are the names of characters from a game called Mortal Kombat.
I'll start off explaining in what way I identify with each character, starting with Sub Zero.
Sub Zero - A ninja that has mastered the element of cold. A friend once called me the Ice Man, because when an incident happens that most people would either panic or show some signs of emotion, I don't, I usually appear to be very calm and not show any kind of emotion. Most people who meet me for the first time don't know what to make of me and normally I don't smile or am animated in anyway. I usually keep calm in any situation and am able to think on my feet and react by instinct.
Scorpion - A ninja lost soul, his fighting style is very aggressive, which comes from his only one purpose, revenge. I am in a way like scorpion, a lost soul, a soul without a home, so to speak, a soul that is out of place in a sense. Like Scorpion, my fighting style is usually very aggressive with one purpose, to win. My fighting style, as I was taught, is to kill or be killed, which as a younger man was understandable, but as I grow older, my style has changed a lot. One person that I would be compared to is Yagyuu Tajima No Kami Munenori, in his younger years his quest was to become the best swordsman in Japan, but in his later years that changed, it became the quest for the understanding of the art and the pursuit of intellectual.
Baraka - His fighting style uses 2 blades that project from the back of his forearms. My fighting style is very similar to his, I believe in using 2 weapons at once, but not guns, I don't believe that there is honor in using guns, only as a last result and only one at a time, only in the movies are 2 guns used and in my opinion, is pointless and a quick way of wasting ammunition.
Reptile - His fighting style is to contantly attack and to attack quickly. At times his moves can be deceptive. This is my fighting style as well, because of my size and weight, I am pretty agile and is deceptive to those I've come up against.
I do want to mention that if at all, I don't care to get into a physical confrontation and would prefer to find a peaceful solution, but if it comes to the last resort, then physical confrontation is my last option and I prefer to win at all costs. One other thing that I would like to mention is that when it comes to my family, I will protect them from harm at any cost and if it has to come to someone losing their life, I would prefer to look them in the eyes, up close, by my own hands then to use a gun and not be personal. Once again, it's the honor of the battle.
I know that this may be an extreme idea, but I would rather not have any confrontation come to the final conclusion. Ok, enough said, I'm not crazy, as long as it stays a thought and not reality this is just a way to keep my sanity.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
The Lost and Forgotten
Mood: a-ok
Well, I know that this is a bit late, but there are times when you get caught in those time passages, a place where you lose track of time. A place that time ends up standing still. A place where you live the past once again, the good and the bad.
Some people call them ghosts, some call them skeletons, but I prefer to think of them as times to reflect. I guess I would have to say that I have a lot of memories of my past that I don't share and would prefer not to share them, some of my past memories are the type of memories that most people would say to share or let them out before they cause problems, but I've been dealing with them for so long its like a favorite hat or blanket.
Well, I know that this is a bit late, but there are times when you get caught in those time passages, a place where you lose track of time. A place that time ends up standing still. A place where you live the past once again, the good and the bad.
Some people call them ghosts, some call them skeletons, but I prefer to think of them as times to reflect. I guess I would have to say that I have a lot of memories of my past that I don't share and would prefer not to share them, some of my past memories are the type of memories that most people would say to share or let them out before they cause problems, but I've been dealing with them for so long its like a favorite hat or blanket.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Yesterdays and Mondays...
Mood: a-ok
Yesterday, I ended up missing work, I must not have set my alarm correctly. I woke up when the sun was shining in my eyes and looked over at the clock and noticed that it was already 0835. So I called in for a sick day, since by the time I get ready and get out, I would've been there about an hour to hour and a half later than what my start time would be.
I spent the day just kicking back and ended up going to the store to get some change for the laundry. I supposed the day wasn't an entire loss. I also got Samantha's box cleaned out, but got lazy after that and decided to empty the trash when I get home after work on Tuesday.
I started transferring my journals over from several sources to just one, it may take a while because when I was actually writing my entries, I would write just about everyday. So, you would imagine, there are quite a few entries for December, at least 18 days worth before I started to fall behind. There is another journal that I have that has some very extremely personal and will not get published to a website.
Anyways, my daily musings should be entertainment enough to keep you either occupied or amused. Besides, if you want to read that kind of stuff, go buy a tabloid magazine, it's much more interesting and besides they talk about famous people.
So, I guess that should be it for now, not much happened yesterday so... the usual, stay safe and stay healthy...
Yesterday, I ended up missing work, I must not have set my alarm correctly. I woke up when the sun was shining in my eyes and looked over at the clock and noticed that it was already 0835. So I called in for a sick day, since by the time I get ready and get out, I would've been there about an hour to hour and a half later than what my start time would be.
I spent the day just kicking back and ended up going to the store to get some change for the laundry. I supposed the day wasn't an entire loss. I also got Samantha's box cleaned out, but got lazy after that and decided to empty the trash when I get home after work on Tuesday.
I started transferring my journals over from several sources to just one, it may take a while because when I was actually writing my entries, I would write just about everyday. So, you would imagine, there are quite a few entries for December, at least 18 days worth before I started to fall behind. There is another journal that I have that has some very extremely personal and will not get published to a website.
Anyways, my daily musings should be entertainment enough to keep you either occupied or amused. Besides, if you want to read that kind of stuff, go buy a tabloid magazine, it's much more interesting and besides they talk about famous people.
So, I guess that should be it for now, not much happened yesterday so... the usual, stay safe and stay healthy...
Sunday, March 20, 2005
It's a Wonderful Life...
Mood: happy
I really enjoy the work that I do, at times it maybe pretty stressful and at times it maybe frustrating, but I do enjoy working there and with most of the people that I work with. Most people usually hold back, that's because they are not sure of the new person, being cautious, like animals in the animal kingdom.
I guess the main reason that I enjoy working there is because I now have enough money (I make enough for a single person to live pretty comfortably) and to be able to buy the things that I want and to be able to pay for the things that I need. Oh sure, there are times that I wished that I was making more money, but then I realize that I don't need it that bad and more than likely it can wait and may go down in price.
I do have to admit though, currently I am at odds with the Minneapolis Police Reserve, mostly because the person that the bestowed rank unto has a power trip going and it seems as though the top brass don't care. They do complain that we don't have enough officers in the ranks, but when it comes to retention, they either are ignorant or clueless as to why they keep losing people. I was pretty upset and almost yelling at my superior, but he understood the reason behind my anger and feels somewhat the same way. Not only that, but my Lt., to whom I suggested for that rank is a weak spine turd. When it comes to confrontation and or standing up for the people under his command, he avoids the situation.
Well, enough of that. The local supermarket (Cub Foods) started increasing their ethnic foods section and started carrying items that I would normally have to travel about 30 minutes to and shop. Now I can pick up some items and for the rest I'll still have to go to the specialty market to get items that Cub Foods doesn't carry. By the way, for those of you that don't live in Minnesota, Cub Foods is a really huge supermarket (for those of you in Hawaii, think Sack N Save in Waipahu) and imagine it about twice that size.
Well, I'll be working on my personal website to update the content and appearance, not only that, but also putting up new pictures of my life here in Minnesota as well as new pictures of Samantha. I first adopted (or was it the other way around) her, she was approximately 11 - 12 months old, that was back in 1996 so she's currently approximately 10 years old. For a cat her age, she still thinks she's a kitten and still plays like a kitten. I have to mention a really cute/funny story about Samantha... One morning as I was sleeping, I was laying on my side, clutching my pillow. Samantha decided she wanted attention and that it was time for me to wake up, so she butted her head up against my face and when that didn't work, she tapped my nose with her paw a couple of times, now normally I would've been a little upset, but then I realized what she did and doing and couldn't help but laugh... That made for a great way to start my day.
Well, anyway, I have to get up early to catch the bus into work so I gotta get some sleep. I'll add a new entry tomorrow. Hope that you'll tune in then, till then, stay safe and well!
I really enjoy the work that I do, at times it maybe pretty stressful and at times it maybe frustrating, but I do enjoy working there and with most of the people that I work with. Most people usually hold back, that's because they are not sure of the new person, being cautious, like animals in the animal kingdom.
I guess the main reason that I enjoy working there is because I now have enough money (I make enough for a single person to live pretty comfortably) and to be able to buy the things that I want and to be able to pay for the things that I need. Oh sure, there are times that I wished that I was making more money, but then I realize that I don't need it that bad and more than likely it can wait and may go down in price.
I do have to admit though, currently I am at odds with the Minneapolis Police Reserve, mostly because the person that the bestowed rank unto has a power trip going and it seems as though the top brass don't care. They do complain that we don't have enough officers in the ranks, but when it comes to retention, they either are ignorant or clueless as to why they keep losing people. I was pretty upset and almost yelling at my superior, but he understood the reason behind my anger and feels somewhat the same way. Not only that, but my Lt., to whom I suggested for that rank is a weak spine turd. When it comes to confrontation and or standing up for the people under his command, he avoids the situation.
Well, enough of that. The local supermarket (Cub Foods) started increasing their ethnic foods section and started carrying items that I would normally have to travel about 30 minutes to and shop. Now I can pick up some items and for the rest I'll still have to go to the specialty market to get items that Cub Foods doesn't carry. By the way, for those of you that don't live in Minnesota, Cub Foods is a really huge supermarket (for those of you in Hawaii, think Sack N Save in Waipahu) and imagine it about twice that size.
Well, I'll be working on my personal website to update the content and appearance, not only that, but also putting up new pictures of my life here in Minnesota as well as new pictures of Samantha. I first adopted (or was it the other way around) her, she was approximately 11 - 12 months old, that was back in 1996 so she's currently approximately 10 years old. For a cat her age, she still thinks she's a kitten and still plays like a kitten. I have to mention a really cute/funny story about Samantha... One morning as I was sleeping, I was laying on my side, clutching my pillow. Samantha decided she wanted attention and that it was time for me to wake up, so she butted her head up against my face and when that didn't work, she tapped my nose with her paw a couple of times, now normally I would've been a little upset, but then I realized what she did and doing and couldn't help but laugh... That made for a great way to start my day.
Well, anyway, I have to get up early to catch the bus into work so I gotta get some sleep. I'll add a new entry tomorrow. Hope that you'll tune in then, till then, stay safe and well!
Saturday, March 19, 2005
The forgotten son
Mood: a-ok
My day today was not bad, I still can't figure out why I woke up so early today. I went to sleep at around 0230 and ended up waking at about 0730 this morning. I was pretty wide awake so I turned the T.V. on and watched for a little while and then decided to try and sleep the rest of the time until I had originally set. I did get some sleep, but Samantha decided otherwise, as I was laying there, clutching my pillow with the blanket partially covering my face, Sam decided to snuggle up to my face, then decided to make sure that I had waken up, tap my nose a couple of times. I couldn't help but laugh and couldn't be mad at her at that point.
After waking up a second time, I kinda stumbled about the apartment, checked my email and got a response I had been waiting for from a pen pal in Russia, but didn't feel like replying right away. By the time I started to get ready to leave, it was approximately 1000 and finally got out the door at approximately 1030. My first stop was the Target in Fridley, I went to go look for materials to create a Terrarium.
I wasn't sure as to what type of terrarium I wanted to create so I was just aimlessly wondering about the store. Target didn't have what I was looking for so my next stop was at Bachman's garden and flower store, but again, they didn't have what I was looking for so I decided to stop at a pet shop and see if I could get ideas as to what kind of miniature landscape I wanted to create.
I've been thinking of creating either a desert landscape or a tropical theme. the desert theme would be easy, at Bachman's, I found very small cacti that would be perfect for the size terrarium I was looking at getting. The other type, a tropical theme would be a little more difficult, mostly because I want to add a waterfall and I also found a device that would create a mist/fog effect that would be very cool.
You all must be wondering "Why go through all the trouble?" Well, in the office that I work, it's pretty bland and impersonal. I wanted to add a little greenery and life to the cube that I work in. Something that would also allow me to look at and give me a calm feeling when things get a little rough while working. Something that would help me keep my sanity. My work cube is large, with a lot of desk space, very organized (compared to some of my fellow co-workers) and I wanted to add a personal/human touch to my area.
Anyway, looking around gave me a couple of ideas and some information on about the cost of creating a terrarium, but now comes the planning and figuring out the total cost.
On a different note, I decided to have a little fun at the expense of one of my co-worker, I decided since he wanted to play the prankster, I decided to decorate his monitor, nothing destructive or permanent, just added a little color and fun by adding some gummy bears that I had bought earlier when I went, still more shopping before actually the start of my shift. I'll let you all know if he notices the additions to his computer monitor.
Other than that, my day has been going pretty well, my mood has still been pretty good with the calls that come in. So far I haven't lost my cool or gotten upset with any of the callers here. For now, life is good.
I guess i'll end my journal here for now and make another entry tomorrow. Hope that all who read this have a good night and stay very well.
My day today was not bad, I still can't figure out why I woke up so early today. I went to sleep at around 0230 and ended up waking at about 0730 this morning. I was pretty wide awake so I turned the T.V. on and watched for a little while and then decided to try and sleep the rest of the time until I had originally set. I did get some sleep, but Samantha decided otherwise, as I was laying there, clutching my pillow with the blanket partially covering my face, Sam decided to snuggle up to my face, then decided to make sure that I had waken up, tap my nose a couple of times. I couldn't help but laugh and couldn't be mad at her at that point.
After waking up a second time, I kinda stumbled about the apartment, checked my email and got a response I had been waiting for from a pen pal in Russia, but didn't feel like replying right away. By the time I started to get ready to leave, it was approximately 1000 and finally got out the door at approximately 1030. My first stop was the Target in Fridley, I went to go look for materials to create a Terrarium.
I wasn't sure as to what type of terrarium I wanted to create so I was just aimlessly wondering about the store. Target didn't have what I was looking for so my next stop was at Bachman's garden and flower store, but again, they didn't have what I was looking for so I decided to stop at a pet shop and see if I could get ideas as to what kind of miniature landscape I wanted to create.
I've been thinking of creating either a desert landscape or a tropical theme. the desert theme would be easy, at Bachman's, I found very small cacti that would be perfect for the size terrarium I was looking at getting. The other type, a tropical theme would be a little more difficult, mostly because I want to add a waterfall and I also found a device that would create a mist/fog effect that would be very cool.
You all must be wondering "Why go through all the trouble?" Well, in the office that I work, it's pretty bland and impersonal. I wanted to add a little greenery and life to the cube that I work in. Something that would also allow me to look at and give me a calm feeling when things get a little rough while working. Something that would help me keep my sanity. My work cube is large, with a lot of desk space, very organized (compared to some of my fellow co-workers) and I wanted to add a personal/human touch to my area.
Anyway, looking around gave me a couple of ideas and some information on about the cost of creating a terrarium, but now comes the planning and figuring out the total cost.
On a different note, I decided to have a little fun at the expense of one of my co-worker, I decided since he wanted to play the prankster, I decided to decorate his monitor, nothing destructive or permanent, just added a little color and fun by adding some gummy bears that I had bought earlier when I went, still more shopping before actually the start of my shift. I'll let you all know if he notices the additions to his computer monitor.
Other than that, my day has been going pretty well, my mood has still been pretty good with the calls that come in. So far I haven't lost my cool or gotten upset with any of the callers here. For now, life is good.
I guess i'll end my journal here for now and make another entry tomorrow. Hope that all who read this have a good night and stay very well.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Putting out fire with gasoline...
Mood: chillin'
Not very many things make me nervous, but watching the way some people drive when the roads are a bit icy makes me nervous and glad that it's those times I'm glad that I'm not out in the middle of the street, directing traffic. I kind of made up a joke when I saw the way some of these drivers speed... I've asked, "Where can I get those special tires for my vehicle?" then someone would look at me in a puzzled way and then I would say "you know, those speed on icy slippery road tires, the ones that allow you to speed on icy and or slippery roads?"
You would think by now that people who live in Minnesota would be a lot more careful when driving in bad road conditions so that they wouldn't get into accidents, but they do anyway, then they can't believe that they either slid off the road or rolled their vehicles... besides, it snows every winter or rains every so often so you would think that these people would know better, but they don't.
The other thing that bothers me is that Minnesotans also like to follow the person that is in front of them on the road thinking that if they do that, it would make them drive faster, but usually doesn't, then when the driver in front of them has to stop suddenly, the plow right into the back of the vehicle in front of them... People get upset when you drive too slow or drive the speed limit, they want to drive faster than the posted speed limit. If their late, then they should know driving faster is not going to get them there faster, especially when they get stopped by a law enforcement officer or they'll never make it to their destination if they get into an accident.
Other than that, today was a good day, got to pay my bills ahead of time and also had a little extra to save. I'm going to try and save some money so that I can help one of my pen pals from Russia come to the U.S. I've been living alone for too long and my search here in Minnesota hasn't been good. I'll write more about that in my future journal entries, so keep checking back to see what I write if your interested, if not, then just check back to see how my life is going in here.
Till the next entry, stay safe and well.
Not very many things make me nervous, but watching the way some people drive when the roads are a bit icy makes me nervous and glad that it's those times I'm glad that I'm not out in the middle of the street, directing traffic. I kind of made up a joke when I saw the way some of these drivers speed... I've asked, "Where can I get those special tires for my vehicle?" then someone would look at me in a puzzled way and then I would say "you know, those speed on icy slippery road tires, the ones that allow you to speed on icy and or slippery roads?"You would think by now that people who live in Minnesota would be a lot more careful when driving in bad road conditions so that they wouldn't get into accidents, but they do anyway, then they can't believe that they either slid off the road or rolled their vehicles... besides, it snows every winter or rains every so often so you would think that these people would know better, but they don't.
The other thing that bothers me is that Minnesotans also like to follow the person that is in front of them on the road thinking that if they do that, it would make them drive faster, but usually doesn't, then when the driver in front of them has to stop suddenly, the plow right into the back of the vehicle in front of them... People get upset when you drive too slow or drive the speed limit, they want to drive faster than the posted speed limit. If their late, then they should know driving faster is not going to get them there faster, especially when they get stopped by a law enforcement officer or they'll never make it to their destination if they get into an accident.
Other than that, today was a good day, got to pay my bills ahead of time and also had a little extra to save. I'm going to try and save some money so that I can help one of my pen pals from Russia come to the U.S. I've been living alone for too long and my search here in Minnesota hasn't been good. I'll write more about that in my future journal entries, so keep checking back to see what I write if your interested, if not, then just check back to see how my life is going in here.
Till the next entry, stay safe and well.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
California Dreamin...
Mood: a-ok
I've been living in Minnesota for about 10 years now, I moved here in April of 1995 and have been back to Hawaii once since then (by the way, I was born and raised in Hawaii with a couple of years in Colorado) and with every winter I get homesick. It used to be worse in the beginning when I first moved here.
I keep finding myself going to the Hawaii news site and reading up on whats going on there and see how things have changed. When I was there the last time, it seemed as though a lot has changed and a lot had stayed the same. I guess I got used to the fact that I never stayed in the same place for more than 9 - 12 months with the exception of when I went to high school up until the time I moved here.
At times I wonder if its just because that I live alone or because I am no longer part of the majority but a minority or because of something else that I'm not aware of. In Hawaii I was part of the Majority, to better explain what I mean, there are a lot of Japanese and people of Japanese ancestry. I believe that the Japanese population was at about 65 percent, the other Asian population made up the other 15 to 20 percent and then the rest were the Caucasians, African Americans, Hispanics and etc...
I do have friends here, but its not the same as having someone special in your life, someone that you can talk to, tell your deepest fears and secrets and to be affectionate to or to share your life with. There were a couple of times that I thought I had found the one, but it seemed that either they were not ready for the commitment or I may have pushed them away in some fashion, to which I'm the only one to be blamed.
For as long as I can remember, I've always kept my emotions bottled up inside. There are a couple of songs that I know of that mention a wall, one of them being obvious by Pink Floyd (actually they had a whole album about it), the other being by Sting, a song called fortress around my heart. Long before those songs, I knew that I had built a wall around my heart and emotions so that I wouldn't be hurt by anyone, but as mentioned before, there were a couple of times that I had broken down those walls to let them in and had gotten hurt very badly by that.
Since then, I've built my walls back up again, but not as high as they used to be. It seems that I can't put them up as high as they used to be.
On the up side of all this, I've been slowly making changes to my website, cleaning it up, streamlining the menus and having a more professional look to it, but then again, it's on a free host site so how much more professional can you get it with all those pop-ups. I would try to purchase a domain again, but because of the past history with my financial situation, it may not be up for very long. So I'll just keep it on the free site.
On another up side, I have been corresponding to 3 very lovely ladies from Russia. I know, it just maybe a money scheme, but so far, my feelings have been telling me that these women are on the level. I have come across a couple of women that were just a way of getting money, usually after about 4 or 5 letters they start asking for money. It was those women that somehow didn't feel right, so I tried to investigate it further and found out that I was right.
Well, I'll end this entry for today and will be back again tomorrow to add more again. It maybe to explain some of my earlier posts or maybe it maybe about something new... gotta keep checking back to see what or which it maybe.
I've been living in Minnesota for about 10 years now, I moved here in April of 1995 and have been back to Hawaii once since then (by the way, I was born and raised in Hawaii with a couple of years in Colorado) and with every winter I get homesick. It used to be worse in the beginning when I first moved here.
I keep finding myself going to the Hawaii news site and reading up on whats going on there and see how things have changed. When I was there the last time, it seemed as though a lot has changed and a lot had stayed the same. I guess I got used to the fact that I never stayed in the same place for more than 9 - 12 months with the exception of when I went to high school up until the time I moved here.
At times I wonder if its just because that I live alone or because I am no longer part of the majority but a minority or because of something else that I'm not aware of. In Hawaii I was part of the Majority, to better explain what I mean, there are a lot of Japanese and people of Japanese ancestry. I believe that the Japanese population was at about 65 percent, the other Asian population made up the other 15 to 20 percent and then the rest were the Caucasians, African Americans, Hispanics and etc...
I do have friends here, but its not the same as having someone special in your life, someone that you can talk to, tell your deepest fears and secrets and to be affectionate to or to share your life with. There were a couple of times that I thought I had found the one, but it seemed that either they were not ready for the commitment or I may have pushed them away in some fashion, to which I'm the only one to be blamed.
For as long as I can remember, I've always kept my emotions bottled up inside. There are a couple of songs that I know of that mention a wall, one of them being obvious by Pink Floyd (actually they had a whole album about it), the other being by Sting, a song called fortress around my heart. Long before those songs, I knew that I had built a wall around my heart and emotions so that I wouldn't be hurt by anyone, but as mentioned before, there were a couple of times that I had broken down those walls to let them in and had gotten hurt very badly by that.
Since then, I've built my walls back up again, but not as high as they used to be. It seems that I can't put them up as high as they used to be.
On the up side of all this, I've been slowly making changes to my website, cleaning it up, streamlining the menus and having a more professional look to it, but then again, it's on a free host site so how much more professional can you get it with all those pop-ups. I would try to purchase a domain again, but because of the past history with my financial situation, it may not be up for very long. So I'll just keep it on the free site.
On another up side, I have been corresponding to 3 very lovely ladies from Russia. I know, it just maybe a money scheme, but so far, my feelings have been telling me that these women are on the level. I have come across a couple of women that were just a way of getting money, usually after about 4 or 5 letters they start asking for money. It was those women that somehow didn't feel right, so I tried to investigate it further and found out that I was right.
Well, I'll end this entry for today and will be back again tomorrow to add more again. It maybe to explain some of my earlier posts or maybe it maybe about something new... gotta keep checking back to see what or which it maybe.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
What can't be said with words can be expressed through music
Mood: not sure
There are times when I can't express myself with words, I guess this is the results of not interacting with other people and just keeping to myself. However, I have found myself feeling a lot more comfortable alone and being able to interact virtually rather than in person.
Also I don't like to talk about myself or express my feelings. I guess that's why when growing up, I can identify with the Mythical Japanese Warrior, the kind of warrior that is born in the shadows, lives in the shadows and dies in the shadows, you might have guessed by now, it's who is commonly known as the Ninja or is known by another name, Shinobi. Normally I wouldn't give out all this information about myself, but I've found out recently, that writing has help relieve myself of the feelings that I've kept to myself for so very long.
I know that when people first meet me for the first time either think that I'm really quiet or unsocial able, but the truth is that I'm studying them to see what kind of person that they maybe. Now for those of you who are reading this, please don't hold it against me.
Now to explain my topic, I usually listen to a lot of music, most of the time, I listen very carefully to the lyrics and find the words and meaning to what I want to say and how I truly feel.
A really good friend and mentor once called me the Ice Man, which is why I chose the image of Sub Zero as my picture in my profile. The reason he called me that, he said, was because when ever something happened, where any other person would react in some way, I don't show any expression or reaction. I guess at times this could make a person uncomfortable or consider it unusal, but my explanation is this, once something happens, there is nothing you can do about it (unless someone develops time travel), the best thing to do is continue on and apoligize if need be or if no one has noticed, all the better.
This doesn't mean that it gives me an excuse to be dishonest, but even more so to be honest, you see I also believe in the ways of the Samurai, there is no honor in dishonesty and you only loose the respect of those who did, an honest person gains even greater respect for being honest as well as maintaining ones honor.
There are times when I can't express myself with words, I guess this is the results of not interacting with other people and just keeping to myself. However, I have found myself feeling a lot more comfortable alone and being able to interact virtually rather than in person.Also I don't like to talk about myself or express my feelings. I guess that's why when growing up, I can identify with the Mythical Japanese Warrior, the kind of warrior that is born in the shadows, lives in the shadows and dies in the shadows, you might have guessed by now, it's who is commonly known as the Ninja or is known by another name, Shinobi. Normally I wouldn't give out all this information about myself, but I've found out recently, that writing has help relieve myself of the feelings that I've kept to myself for so very long.
I know that when people first meet me for the first time either think that I'm really quiet or unsocial able, but the truth is that I'm studying them to see what kind of person that they maybe. Now for those of you who are reading this, please don't hold it against me.
Now to explain my topic, I usually listen to a lot of music, most of the time, I listen very carefully to the lyrics and find the words and meaning to what I want to say and how I truly feel.
A really good friend and mentor once called me the Ice Man, which is why I chose the image of Sub Zero as my picture in my profile. The reason he called me that, he said, was because when ever something happened, where any other person would react in some way, I don't show any expression or reaction. I guess at times this could make a person uncomfortable or consider it unusal, but my explanation is this, once something happens, there is nothing you can do about it (unless someone develops time travel), the best thing to do is continue on and apoligize if need be or if no one has noticed, all the better.
This doesn't mean that it gives me an excuse to be dishonest, but even more so to be honest, you see I also believe in the ways of the Samurai, there is no honor in dishonesty and you only loose the respect of those who did, an honest person gains even greater respect for being honest as well as maintaining ones honor.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Where Fantasy and Reality meet...
Mood: a-ok
Today was a pretty good day, been in a pretty good mood at work lately. Not sure why, it just seems a bit more pleasant somehow... I still can't figure out why I woke up late, well, I know why, it seems that I turned my alarm off and went back to sleep, usually I wake up at approximately 0515 CST, get ready for work and leave to catch the bus at approximately 0630 CST on Mondays and Tuesdays.
I ended up having to drive into work this morning and got to work approximately 10 to 15 minutes late, I usually start at 0800 on Mondays and Tuesdays and work a 10 hour shift. On Fridays and Saturdays I start at 1230 CST and end at 2300.
Ok, now to write about my topic. While riding the bus yesterday, I started thinking (because while riding I do a lot of that) that we all have a fantasy side and a reality side, meaning we think of things that we'd like to do but never act on those thoughts because it doesn't fit the societies norms. We go about our day according to what society considers normal. For example, the person that is next to you either walking, sitting or driving could be thinking of hitting that person that either cut them off in traffic, cut in front of the line or whatever, but in reality they either just do nothing or may say something quiet enough that either the person cannot hear or just barely.
They maybe thinking of their "activities" from the night before or what they would like to do to that really good looking guy or girl if they were alone together, but keep those thoughts to themselves because the person that they are thinking of may not approve or may think of them as being "weird".
Well, I know I'm just leaving this as is, but I have to help take care of the squad cars tomorrow and make sure they go in for their monthly maintenance. So, I'll leave it at that...
Today was a pretty good day, been in a pretty good mood at work lately. Not sure why, it just seems a bit more pleasant somehow... I still can't figure out why I woke up late, well, I know why, it seems that I turned my alarm off and went back to sleep, usually I wake up at approximately 0515 CST, get ready for work and leave to catch the bus at approximately 0630 CST on Mondays and Tuesdays.
I ended up having to drive into work this morning and got to work approximately 10 to 15 minutes late, I usually start at 0800 on Mondays and Tuesdays and work a 10 hour shift. On Fridays and Saturdays I start at 1230 CST and end at 2300.
Ok, now to write about my topic. While riding the bus yesterday, I started thinking (because while riding I do a lot of that) that we all have a fantasy side and a reality side, meaning we think of things that we'd like to do but never act on those thoughts because it doesn't fit the societies norms. We go about our day according to what society considers normal. For example, the person that is next to you either walking, sitting or driving could be thinking of hitting that person that either cut them off in traffic, cut in front of the line or whatever, but in reality they either just do nothing or may say something quiet enough that either the person cannot hear or just barely.
They maybe thinking of their "activities" from the night before or what they would like to do to that really good looking guy or girl if they were alone together, but keep those thoughts to themselves because the person that they are thinking of may not approve or may think of them as being "weird".
Well, I know I'm just leaving this as is, but I have to help take care of the squad cars tomorrow and make sure they go in for their monthly maintenance. So, I'll leave it at that...
Monday, March 14, 2005
All the worlds a stage...
Mood: a-ok
On my way to work today, as I was riding the bus, i've come to realize how true that saying is. I should explain what brings me to this conclusion of my own opinion, one of my hobbies is sociology, sociology, according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary:
1 : the science of society , social institutions, and social relationships; specifically : the systematic study of the development, structure, interaction, and collective behavior of organized groups of human beings
2 : the scientific analysis of a social institution as a functioning whole and as it relates to the rest of society
Well anyway, some people appear to be friendly and genuinely interested in wanting to be your friend or get to know you and There are people that act friendly and act like they want to get to know you.
There are also people that appear to be unfriendly but prefer to keep to themselves and there are people who are just unfriendly. Anyway, while riding the bus I see the different kinds of people that get on the bus and while walking around. Most of the time its more of a feeling that I can't explain. I have been using my sixth sense more and more, it seems that while working for a local police department at a hospital, I have had to rely on my feelings. I'm not a judgemental person, but all of my feelings were confirmed while working there.
While at work today, things seemed a lot more pleasant even though it was pretty busy, not like it has been previously. At the end of my shift, I had approximately 47 tickets that I had opened for various incident, most, I believe, were for password resets. I suspect that it was much higher because I didn't open tickets for all calls I took.
After work, on my ride back home on the bus, I could feel some of the other passengers feelings, feelings of being tired and looking forward to being at home. There were some of the other passengers I could feel that were... well, lets just leave it at that.
My mothers birthday gift finally arrived which I was finally glad that it came. I'll end my journal here and try to make sure that I add more tomorrow. Here is the card she sent, what a sense of humor...
On my way to work today, as I was riding the bus, i've come to realize how true that saying is. I should explain what brings me to this conclusion of my own opinion, one of my hobbies is sociology, sociology, according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary:
1 : the science of society , social institutions, and social relationships; specifically : the systematic study of the development, structure, interaction, and collective behavior of organized groups of human beings
2 : the scientific analysis of a social institution as a functioning whole and as it relates to the rest of society
Well anyway, some people appear to be friendly and genuinely interested in wanting to be your friend or get to know you and There are people that act friendly and act like they want to get to know you.
There are also people that appear to be unfriendly but prefer to keep to themselves and there are people who are just unfriendly. Anyway, while riding the bus I see the different kinds of people that get on the bus and while walking around. Most of the time its more of a feeling that I can't explain. I have been using my sixth sense more and more, it seems that while working for a local police department at a hospital, I have had to rely on my feelings. I'm not a judgemental person, but all of my feelings were confirmed while working there.
While at work today, things seemed a lot more pleasant even though it was pretty busy, not like it has been previously. At the end of my shift, I had approximately 47 tickets that I had opened for various incident, most, I believe, were for password resets. I suspect that it was much higher because I didn't open tickets for all calls I took.
After work, on my ride back home on the bus, I could feel some of the other passengers feelings, feelings of being tired and looking forward to being at home. There were some of the other passengers I could feel that were... well, lets just leave it at that.
My mothers birthday gift finally arrived which I was finally glad that it came. I'll end my journal here and try to make sure that I add more tomorrow. Here is the card she sent, what a sense of humor...
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Deep thoughts, NOT by Jack Handy
Mood: not sure
Well, giving up smoking is much harder than most people would think, the cravings, the hunting for even just a little bit... I try to drink coffee, but it seems that I need something else, I don't know what that may be... I suppose deep down what I crave is a cigarette.
I've been trying to keep myself busy by either surfing the net or by watching TV, it helps for a while.
I was supposed to go into work for an overtime day, but due to my fuel situation of only having a quarter tank left and that it takes about a quarter tank to get to work from home, it would have been a one way trip... so instead I called in and informed them that I wouldn't be able to make it in that day, but I will be there on Monday. Why Monday, you may ask, it's because I have a bus pass, so all I have to do is get to the bus stop and catch the bus into work.
I ended up spending the whole day relaxing and trying to figure out how would I get just a couple extra dollars to use for gas... when I figure that out I'll let you know...
I would like to add, my thanks to Michael Robert Pintozzi for the offer, but I was waiting for an important piece of mail.
Well, giving up smoking is much harder than most people would think, the cravings, the hunting for even just a little bit... I try to drink coffee, but it seems that I need something else, I don't know what that may be... I suppose deep down what I crave is a cigarette.
I've been trying to keep myself busy by either surfing the net or by watching TV, it helps for a while.
I was supposed to go into work for an overtime day, but due to my fuel situation of only having a quarter tank left and that it takes about a quarter tank to get to work from home, it would have been a one way trip... so instead I called in and informed them that I wouldn't be able to make it in that day, but I will be there on Monday. Why Monday, you may ask, it's because I have a bus pass, so all I have to do is get to the bus stop and catch the bus into work.
I ended up spending the whole day relaxing and trying to figure out how would I get just a couple extra dollars to use for gas... when I figure that out I'll let you know...
I would like to add, my thanks to Michael Robert Pintozzi for the offer, but I was waiting for an important piece of mail.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Smoking improves attitude...
Mood: irritated
Well, last night I smoked my last cigarette. I've decided that after 10 years of smoking, I'm going to try to tough it out. Now I just have to get past the 2 days that they say will be the difficult time.
It was my birthday yesterday, I didn't want to mention it to any of my co-workers, but was hoping that someone had already known what day it was. Not a chance. I was also hoping that someone would know without me having to say anything.
I suppose this is one of the side effects of quitting smoking, I've been a little more irritated, but then again, that might not be unusual.
Well, last night I smoked my last cigarette. I've decided that after 10 years of smoking, I'm going to try to tough it out. Now I just have to get past the 2 days that they say will be the difficult time.
It was my birthday yesterday, I didn't want to mention it to any of my co-workers, but was hoping that someone had already known what day it was. Not a chance. I was also hoping that someone would know without me having to say anything.
I suppose this is one of the side effects of quitting smoking, I've been a little more irritated, but then again, that might not be unusual.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Typical day, sort of...
Well tonight went well, not much happening at the hospital, only one admit. I was feeling somewhat depressed and also had a strange feeling all day. I still don't know what it was about. I just hope that it was for a good thing and not a bad thing. I guess I'm needed to work for a co-worker at the hospital because I got the phone call.
After starting at 1600 today, it started off to a slow start, but it seemed to pick up at around 1630. Maybe my emotions that I'm feeling is somehow effecting the patients there. I sure hope not. I was able to go home and get something to eat cause I wasn't able to while at work, missed the dinner hour cause of a late detox admit. This is the third time she's been here and this time, she claims she is going to get married in December. I feel sorry for the guy if she doesn't change. Although he looked as though as he drinks himself.
The night is going good so far, things have calmed down. The weather out side feels like fall. It seems like this month has been going by quickly...
After starting at 1600 today, it started off to a slow start, but it seemed to pick up at around 1630. Maybe my emotions that I'm feeling is somehow effecting the patients there. I sure hope not. I was able to go home and get something to eat cause I wasn't able to while at work, missed the dinner hour cause of a late detox admit. This is the third time she's been here and this time, she claims she is going to get married in December. I feel sorry for the guy if she doesn't change. Although he looked as though as he drinks himself.
The night is going good so far, things have calmed down. The weather out side feels like fall. It seems like this month has been going by quickly...
Saturday, October 02, 2004
What I planned and what actually happened...
Well, today (yesterday), I had set out to get drunk, the original plan was to drink vodka but instead I chose beer. I not sure, but I think the weather has been having a major effect on my mood. The weather today has been really grey and pretty much raining all day. It later turned cold so it may explain a lot.
Sandy and Robert have noticed that I have been losing weight. Although drinking beer tonight will more than likely put back on a couple of pounds that I had lost. For some reason again today I've been having this strange feeling. I don't know what it is but it's been making me feel uneasy. I can't seem to concentrate on anything and I've been feeling uneasy.
I'm deciding, or at least debating on getting a lottery ticket, the powerball jackpot is fairly high up there.
Sandy and Robert have noticed that I have been losing weight. Although drinking beer tonight will more than likely put back on a couple of pounds that I had lost. For some reason again today I've been having this strange feeling. I don't know what it is but it's been making me feel uneasy. I can't seem to concentrate on anything and I've been feeling uneasy.
I'm deciding, or at least debating on getting a lottery ticket, the powerball jackpot is fairly high up there.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
The Return of the Online Journal
Today is my first page of my personal journal. I've found that by writing what I feel helps me feel better.
I've been a little depressed lately, mostly from working 2 jobs, the other job is about 80 miles away in one direction, while this other job is only about 1 mile away. The 1st job is in Annandale, MN at a country club, working as a Sous Chef. The Manager is a pretty great guy and I really enjoy working for him. He lets me be a little more creative with the dishes that we serve there. The other job, even though it's close by, it's on a shift that goes from Midnight to 0600, it's a quiet shift so I can't complain too much. I just think that it's the being tired part that is making me feel depressed. I'll try and get some sleep tonight which should make a difference
I've been a little depressed lately, mostly from working 2 jobs, the other job is about 80 miles away in one direction, while this other job is only about 1 mile away. The 1st job is in Annandale, MN at a country club, working as a Sous Chef. The Manager is a pretty great guy and I really enjoy working for him. He lets me be a little more creative with the dishes that we serve there. The other job, even though it's close by, it's on a shift that goes from Midnight to 0600, it's a quiet shift so I can't complain too much. I just think that it's the being tired part that is making me feel depressed. I'll try and get some sleep tonight which should make a difference
Sunday, August 01, 1999
Thursday, July 29, 1999
RE-jected...
I got a letter from the Chief of Police today, denying me of a CCW Permit. It claims that I have insufficient reason to carry a handgun in public.
Work was a bit strange, lots of calls and of difficult ones, turns out that I didn't have to start till 0600 and actually started at 0400... I didn't mind since that I don't have much to do anyway.
The drive on the way home was very tiring and the traffic was heavy. kept trying to stay awake. The heat was a bit much, no cool breeze, only a hot wind blowing through the car.
On the bright side, my high capacity magazine rebuild kit arrived, but won't be able to pick it up until Saturday. I'll also have 2 more high capacity magazines on order.
Work was a bit strange, lots of calls and of difficult ones, turns out that I didn't have to start till 0600 and actually started at 0400... I didn't mind since that I don't have much to do anyway.
The drive on the way home was very tiring and the traffic was heavy. kept trying to stay awake. The heat was a bit much, no cool breeze, only a hot wind blowing through the car.
On the bright side, my high capacity magazine rebuild kit arrived, but won't be able to pick it up until Saturday. I'll also have 2 more high capacity magazines on order.
Wednesday, July 28, 1999
Synopsis of everything up to this date...
Well another month is coming to a close and nothing entered into my daily journal, maybe I should just put a synopsis of the month instead...
Well, I've applied for my CCW permit and will find out, hopefully in August on the 6th or 7th. I already own a 12 gauge shotgun and a Glock 10 mm handgun. I guess the next logical step would be to sign up for classes and get a degree in Law Enforcement.
I'll find out about getting financial aid soon so that I can sign up for classes. I'll be going to a Law Enforcement handgun training course in September in Oregon. That should be a fun trip.
Well, I guess more later...
Well, I've applied for my CCW permit and will find out, hopefully in August on the 6th or 7th. I already own a 12 gauge shotgun and a Glock 10 mm handgun. I guess the next logical step would be to sign up for classes and get a degree in Law Enforcement.
I'll find out about getting financial aid soon so that I can sign up for classes. I'll be going to a Law Enforcement handgun training course in September in Oregon. That should be a fun trip.
Well, I guess more later...
Tuesday, June 01, 1999
The June that never was...
Got lazy and didn't put anything for June, oh well... Check out July though.
Saturday, May 29, 1999
Thunder Bunnies - GO!
I couldn't sleep until about 5:00 am, just as fate would have it, the Thunder Bunnies upstairs decided to have some fun... Now the reason that I have named them the Thunder Bunnies is 2 fold, the first is because when they walk, they walk pretty heavy and are always making noises, being dropping things on the floor or stumbling. They don't care about anyone living below them (me). The second is because they seem to have sex almost everyday.
So anyway, I lay down to sleep and I hear the squeaking of the bed and her moaning out loudly, at one point I think they're doing it doggie style because she gets louder as if facing or being up against the wall. Now it seems that his stamina is getting better because this time it lasted what seemed to be about half an hour. Oh, and I think his name is Patrick, or at least that's what it sounded like when she was calling out his (more like yelling it out) name.
I guess it can't be helped, they're young and I'm getting old... maybe I'll end up being the cranky old man that lives downstairs...lol
Well, today started out interesting, because the first thing I get there I have to rewrite a report that I opened for a shaking screen at one of the ticket offices, it seems that a "Field Engineer" didn't like the way I worded the additional comments. I wonder about these so called "FE"'s because it seems that they only do a half a** job when they do something. Then they think that their doing a good job. I think that I could do a better job then they could, when it comes to either replacing a part... the last tech had called the location and just settled for "oh it's ok now" and didn't bother to double check to make sure that it was ok... I understand that they have more to do now, but why not make sure it's fixed the first time around and not have to keep going back?
Oh well, enough dwelling on that, till next time...
So anyway, I lay down to sleep and I hear the squeaking of the bed and her moaning out loudly, at one point I think they're doing it doggie style because she gets louder as if facing or being up against the wall. Now it seems that his stamina is getting better because this time it lasted what seemed to be about half an hour. Oh, and I think his name is Patrick, or at least that's what it sounded like when she was calling out his (more like yelling it out) name.
I guess it can't be helped, they're young and I'm getting old... maybe I'll end up being the cranky old man that lives downstairs...lol
Well, today started out interesting, because the first thing I get there I have to rewrite a report that I opened for a shaking screen at one of the ticket offices, it seems that a "Field Engineer" didn't like the way I worded the additional comments. I wonder about these so called "FE"'s because it seems that they only do a half a** job when they do something. Then they think that their doing a good job. I think that I could do a better job then they could, when it comes to either replacing a part... the last tech had called the location and just settled for "oh it's ok now" and didn't bother to double check to make sure that it was ok... I understand that they have more to do now, but why not make sure it's fixed the first time around and not have to keep going back?
Oh well, enough dwelling on that, till next time...
Friday, May 28, 1999
Budgets, Movies and The Thunder Bunnies...
Well, yesterday I blew my budget for next week, made the mistake of going to the gun shop to look for accessories for my Glock and ended up buying a Shotgun, a Mossberg 590 12 gauge pump shotgun. Came with a pistol grip if I want to change from the full stock to just a pistol grip. I wished that it came with the heat shield instead, but I can pick that up for an additional $27.00 plus shipping. It's the same type of shot gun used by the Military and Law Enforcement use. I just hope that I can go fire off a couple of shells at the range soon.
I finally got to go see Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menance. The theater was THX equipped and was pretty good, now I can't wait to see Episode II and III.
The latest news about the people upstairs: I'm really begining to hate this guy's car, he has a car alarm and comes and goes at all hours turning off and on his car alarm, the bad part about it is that he parks right in front of my window... Not only that, but his girlfriend is a screamer... lately they've been quiet, but one morning I was woken up by her... I listened for about 3 minutes then went back to sleep.
Other than that, I'm ready for hunting season, so Bambi, Watch Out, I'll be looking for ya... and I'll need to get a fishing license soon because lately the fish have been biting.
With summer here I want to get out and go fishing and can't wait for hunting season... :)
Till next time...
I finally got to go see Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menance. The theater was THX equipped and was pretty good, now I can't wait to see Episode II and III.
The latest news about the people upstairs: I'm really begining to hate this guy's car, he has a car alarm and comes and goes at all hours turning off and on his car alarm, the bad part about it is that he parks right in front of my window... Not only that, but his girlfriend is a screamer... lately they've been quiet, but one morning I was woken up by her... I listened for about 3 minutes then went back to sleep.
Other than that, I'm ready for hunting season, so Bambi, Watch Out, I'll be looking for ya... and I'll need to get a fishing license soon because lately the fish have been biting.
With summer here I want to get out and go fishing and can't wait for hunting season... :)
Till next time...
Saturday, May 22, 1999
Teeth, Japan and the Glock...
It was a nice day, but ended up storming in the late afternoon. My filling for one of my molars fell out, but have temporaryly filled it with orthodental wax.
It was a slow day this evening. Not much going on in the world of computers at Northwest Airlines, took care of some things that came over the teletype, mostly in Japan. Suprised them when I answered them back in Japanese... :)
Hopefully this coming week, I'll have the chance to get to the gun range to do some shooting.... Went twice the week before last so I didn't go this past week. Iching to try out my handgun with the new slip on grip that I got for it.
I guess that's it for now. More later...
It was a slow day this evening. Not much going on in the world of computers at Northwest Airlines, took care of some things that came over the teletype, mostly in Japan. Suprised them when I answered them back in Japanese... :)
Hopefully this coming week, I'll have the chance to get to the gun range to do some shooting.... Went twice the week before last so I didn't go this past week. Iching to try out my handgun with the new slip on grip that I got for it.
I guess that's it for now. More later...
Thursday, May 20, 1999
In Need of Motivation..
Well, spent the day doing nothing, it's hard to keep a website up and only if your "inspired" can you still keep it up. I wanted to go to the gun range today to practice my aim and to try out the new slip on grip that I just put on, but the weather was bad and I had to pay my rent which was late...not a good thing... but I'm paid up for this month.
I was also supposed to wash laundry, but got caught up in a new game that I got, Fleet Commander from Jane's, it's just like Harpoon but better because you can micro manage the fleet and do missions all over the world.
I wanted to go see Star Wars yesterday, but found out that the tickets were sold out in advance, even the 3:45 AM show, yep thats right, 3:45 AM. I found out that the theater at the Mall of America ended up showing it 24 hours. I guess I can wait till next time.
Right now on Show Time, they're showing the new episodes of Spawn. Very dark but interesting.
Well, I guess till next time.
I was also supposed to wash laundry, but got caught up in a new game that I got, Fleet Commander from Jane's, it's just like Harpoon but better because you can micro manage the fleet and do missions all over the world.
I wanted to go see Star Wars yesterday, but found out that the tickets were sold out in advance, even the 3:45 AM show, yep thats right, 3:45 AM. I found out that the theater at the Mall of America ended up showing it 24 hours. I guess I can wait till next time.
Right now on Show Time, they're showing the new episodes of Spawn. Very dark but interesting.
Well, I guess till next time.
Saturday, May 15, 1999
Glock fun
I went shooting yesterday to get out some frustrations, shot a 97% out of 50 rounds. Not bad... Installed a new stainless steel guide rod in the Glock which helped. I was using Blazer 200 grain rounds, which made for an interesting shooting.
On the 18th, was thinking of going to see Star Wars, but the only open show is at 3:15 and 3:45 AM at the Mall of America...I might go, should be interesting to go see a movie that early in the morning.
Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll try to keep up my journal. Check you all laters...
On the 18th, was thinking of going to see Star Wars, but the only open show is at 3:15 and 3:45 AM at the Mall of America...I might go, should be interesting to go see a movie that early in the morning.
Well, I guess that's it for now, I'll try to keep up my journal. Check you all laters...
Sunday, May 09, 1999
May 1999
Well, yesterday I passed my Basic Handgun Self-Defense Course and am now able to get a concealed carry license. It was an interesting course that dealt with Y2K, Self defense and survival. We also got to train shooting in the dark which was very interesting. Out of 18 rounds that I shot in the dark, I hit 17 and missed one...4 to the head...
Today was real slow at Sam Goody so they let me go home early. It was a beautiful day, but got caught up with a movie and didn't go out till late, walked to the store and back to pick up some stuffs...
I hope that tomorrow I'll have the time to go to the range before going into work at Sam Goody to pratice what I leared from Saturday. Well, I guess that's it for now... Will write more later... and maybe I'll get a picture of me and my gun on my site...
Today was real slow at Sam Goody so they let me go home early. It was a beautiful day, but got caught up with a movie and didn't go out till late, walked to the store and back to pick up some stuffs...
I hope that tomorrow I'll have the time to go to the range before going into work at Sam Goody to pratice what I leared from Saturday. Well, I guess that's it for now... Will write more later... and maybe I'll get a picture of me and my gun on my site...
Thursday, April 01, 1999
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