Not much going on...

Not much going on in my life lately, although there have been some things that have come to my attention that would give me an advantage in a thing coming up for me soon. Almost like playing a game of Chess, a lot of strategy and trying to push your opponent into making a mistake and then taking advantage of that mistake. This is why I like playing strategy games more so than first person shooters. Although, I do really enjoy the game Battlefield 2, in a why it also requires a bit of strategy so that you do not end up getting yourself killed.

Another game I really enjoy is Star Wars: Empire at War. In the game, I keep trying to get the advantage in order to defeat my opponents. This is why I have not been making many journal entries lately. Another thing I recently picked up is a set of travel speakers for my Zen Micro. At first, I thought after seeing the actual speakers that the sound would not be as good as some of the larger speakers out there, but to my surprise, it sounded good for such a small speaker system. Now, I am looking at getting the Power Sub-woofer that they have for it. This will give me a better bass sound when listening to music at work.

Last week I came across some mp3s that I found on the net, mostly of what they call “smooth” jazz. Listening to those songs at work helped keep me calm and make the calls a little more bearable. While trying to find more “smooth” jazz, I also found some songs that are considered “Ambient”. Most of them had Gregorian chanting in it, like the first Enigma album, found a lot of those and now have them loaded into the mp3 player for work. This will help me deal with the calls we get there…

The truck has been having problems lately, it appears that the U-joints are going out and making the drive a little rough. As soon as I reach 45 miles per hour, the truck starts to vibrate and has a loud low frequency hum. I’ve been trying to find routes to work that doesn’t require me to travel faster than 45 mph, but makes for a longer drive cause I’m not taking a direct route to work. I have to leave a lot earlier than the time I usually do…

Well, I guess that pretty much covers it, if any of the readers here play Battlefield 2, just look for tekbandit66 or in Star Wars: Empire at War, (if I can get it…) Sub Zero, give me a shout and hopefully we’ll play against each other or on the same team.

Till next time…

This isn't Day Care and I'm not a baby sitter...

Depending on the job or the employer, playing around is fine, but in a business environment, business is business, not a playground, not daycare. Your getting paid to do a job. You want to play go work at GameWorks or some place similar. I wonder if it's because I'm getting old that I'm feeling this way. It could be that there was a major issue going on at work and one of the employee's there started sending out instant messages while trying to be funny... it's just that there were 20 plus calls waiting and messages like that just seem like they were playing around when there was work to be done.

The thing is, you want to be funny in an IM, go home and do that, but in a place of business, keep it professional. Not only are message logs available for emails, but they are also available for IM's. I'm the kind of person that believes work is work and outside of work, do what ever you want, just keep it legal. Like I've mentioned before in a previous post, I'm there to work, I was hired to do a job and was not hired to play around. If you don't want to work or you think that I'm making you look bad, then maybe your not working hard enough. If I feel that someone else is not working or doing what they should be doing, then I work harder to get it done, I have the right to complain because of this and they can't complain that I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, that's because I'm doing their work for them.

There are several people at work that I don't have a complaint about and only because they work as hard as they can or as hard as I do, one of them is my Asian brother, another is that Disco Stu, another is the Man in Black, Dr. Giggles, Blogginuggin, Rysah57 and 2 others (I'll have names for them soon). I've tried to give that person advice, especially if that person wants to either move up or get better pay, but being as young as that person is, that person basically disregards my advice. Ok, so if the person wants to basically disregards my advice, then fine, no more looking out for that person, no further advice. Your on your own. What it comes down to is sink or swim. Keep going the path that your on, it's going to lead you no where. Being all buddy, buddy will get you no where and people will not take you serious.

Where I'm coming from is that I've been working since I was 10 years old and because of the way I treat work, people will take me seriously and I'll always be employed. It's when I start to slack off or not take the job seriously that I run into problems (apparently, this also includes job burnout).

Pressure...

(Disclaimer: This particular post is not for younger readers or those offended by foul language)

Imagine this...

Your lying on a slab of concrete and someone places on top of you an equal size slab of lead, a block measuring 10 feet long by 5 feet wide and 2 feet in depth. Imagine the intense pressure of that block of lead. That's how I feel right now.

People think their above you when you ask them questions, trying to resolve thier issues and they lie to you, LIE. Ok, now I asked this particular person to take a look at something, the persons response was, there is nothing there. Ok, so the persons settings are missing, now coming from the background that I do, I begin the usual questions of is this the same computer that the person logs into, did anyone else change the settings. The person stated, yes it was and no, no one else. Ok, so I ask the person to tell me what was in the settings, I ask the person to open the accounts, I wait and then the person states that there is nothing. Ok, it's not setup.

Then the person starts getting upset cause I'm asking all the questions and trying to pull teeth to have the person make sure the settings are correct, the person wants to give a never ending story of what is not working and a life story. If the person would only just follow directions, quit playing games!!!!!

LOOK, YOU WANT TO PLAY GAMES, GO BUY A GAMEBOY!

Now add to the fact that I had to pay a larger rent for the month, bills backed up, taxes from 2003 that need to be paid, student loans that are default, a court case that is still to be decided, no food except for rice, no cigarettes, only a quarter tank of gas today that is supposed to get me to work and back home for 2 days which takes a half tank and now this guy wants to play the guessing games when the phone cue is back up, people don't do their jobs, and no one seems to want to do anything because their afraid of HR? You want to really know something? A person can only withstand so much pressure before something happens, so for right now:

BACK THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!

I'm sick and tired of the political games and of people saying things that they said they would and never got back to me. I'm sick of getting the brush off, I'm sick of people that think their getting away with shit but in reality no one either gives a shit or wants to say anything because they know it'll fall upon deaf ears.

They keep wondering why I get so pissed and frustrated, but do they keep going from call to call to call while others are playing? No.

Why should they care.