Disturbing Dream

Early this morning I had a dream that I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep, so this is why I'm posting this now. I don't know if what has happened with my truck recently and at the time of falling asleep, the X-Files was on when I turned off the T.V., but here goes...

I was searching or investigating something that had to deal with the Catholic church. I didn't recognize the place that I was in, but it was a room with 4 pillars of Marble, the floor, I believe also of marble, was tiled. In the middle of the room was a raised area, possibly with a marble pedestal.

I forget what it was leading towards, but there was something about combining certain things and it ended up forming a caustic, poisonous gas.

I remember at one point and I don't know how I got there, I was driving in my truck on a road that looked vaguely familiar. It was in the pre-dawn hours, I was in a slight turn and in my headlights on the road, I saw something there. I must not have been going that fast, but I was able to avoid running it over. As I drove past, I had now saw that it was a young female, maybe in her late teens, early 20's, long dark mid-back length hair. It appeared that she had vomited something green and I couldn't tell if she was alive or not. I couldn't tell what her race was cause she was lying face down or away from where I could see.

For some reason, I didn't stop, I kept driving and a very short distance later, came across another female, about the same age, but this female was a blond with the same length hair. It also appeared she had vomited something green. I decided to turn around and see if I could help or check to see if both the women were alive and block the road so that anyone else driving wouldn't run them over.

It was at that point I woke up.

Since I couldn't get back to sleep, I decided to finish up configuring the radio in the truck and put one of the panels under the steering column back on. Had a couple of cigarettes and here I am now, writing about all this...

つづく ( To be continued... )

The Week in Review

For sometime now, I've been having issues with the Truck. It's a great truck however I've had this issue where when it gets hot or if I drive a distance, when I stop off and then try to start the truck to return home, it won't start. No turning of the starter, no clicking of the solenoid. So this past Saturday, my friend and I took out the starter and took it down to the auto store to have them test it.

The starter tested just fine and it appeared to be the OEM starter, so I decided to get a new starter anyway. I get home, put the starter in and my friend decides to remove the non-functioning car alarm. After all that was removed, get into the truck and turn the key... No joy. The power comes on for everything else, the stereo, lights, etc... but no turning of the starter. We double checked everything, got the tester out and tested for power.

Still couldn't start the truck. After working on the truck for 8 hours, we both decided to give up for the day. The next day, Sunday, I jacked up the truck and rolled under it to see if I could trace the lines to find the problem. I was looking right at it, and I'll explain towards the end.

I gave up and called the shop to pick up my truck to have them look at it. That was on Monday, after they picked up my truck on a wrecker, about 6 hours later, I got a call from the shop that my truck was ready. They told me that one of the wires was on the wrong post, not the one directly from the battery, but the other "ground" wire.

Funny thing is on Sunday, I was looking directly at the issue, I kept thinking that the wire was in the wrong place but because I was already tired, it didn't register in my mind.

Now a new issue has come up, not as critical as the truck not starting... the radio doesn't turn on, so I'll have to double check the wiring, it did work before all this, so there maybe a crossed wire or a fuse may have blown.

Ok, now I have everything back. I ended up pulling out the stereo cause it was bugging me and double checked the wires. I made sure I tightened the wire caps for the Ignition and the Power. Started up my truck and pressed the power button... STEREO! Now I just have to reconfigure the stations and the other settings, then it'll be done.

I also now need to replace the 5 amp fuse for the Instrument panel lights... seems like my work is never done... but I guess that's half the fun of owning a vehicle worth working on.

つづく ( To be continued... )

Battlefield 2

Here is my story since the clan I was associated with have since banned me...

I became a member in October of 2007 and have played on their maps, Ghost town and Road Rage. Due to the Holidays, I had stopped playing for about a month to 2 months. When I was able to continue, I was unable to log onto the Road Rage map.

I tried to find a solution but apparently because I downloaded it through a online purchase of the add-on, I was unable to re-install it or re-download the map. After much researching, I decided on purchasing a hard copy (buying the actual disk in a retail store). However since EA (Electronic Arts), stopped any further updates, they didn't have the stand alone copy of the Armored Fury maps for sale anywhere.

I had been getting an error and kick out of the online play by Punkbuster, a MD5 Mismatch in the Settings.ini, now I find this rather frustrating cause, no one had said anything or getting kicked off the clan back in May/June months. I would just stop playing for the evening and try again the next, or I would wait the amount of time it said and get back on...

So I decided on getting the Battlefield 2: Complete Collection, it took me about a month to find one cause EA had discontinued or ending further development of the Battlefield 2 series, I was finally able to find it.

So I re-installed Armored Fury and re-register my copy and was fine for a couple of weeks, then all of a sudden, I started to get the same message again. Now, this time, I get dropped by the clan I'm associated with. Several people, without getting the full information just automatically brand me a hacker/cheater and if that doesn't cap it, the Head of the clan will not listen to the explanation.

Prior to my being kicked from the clan, I had installed 3 additional mods, AIX, Reality Project and Nations at War. I've also installed another game called Call of Duty 4: Modern Combat. Both Battlefield 2 and Call of Duty 4 use Punkbuster. I've also re-installed Punkbuster and manually updated the files... Even after closing out my virus scanning software, I still got the same error...

I've been playing games online since the first FPS / Strategy games came out. Online, I know what happens when you hack much less care to hack a game to cheat. If I cheat, it's offline and offline alone. Besides, if I were hacking/cheating, wouldn't my scores reflect that I was? What frustrates me is that people are so quick to judge and they say that they don't, it's very difficult to dispute once it's in writing at this point and now, I don't think I want be be a member if this is going to happen, be it now or again...

つづく ( To be continued... )

Frustration levels rising again...

Just when something goes good, something else has to come along and drop on top of me like a 10 ton boulder.

I just found out the clan I was associated with in Battlefield 2 had banned me because of Punkbuster, which is screwing up and not me. I've always played by the rules online, even when other were not and now I'm catching the heat from that.

The clan members that once supported me when I first joined have all turned their backs on me, I'm really gettng sick of this two faced treatment, it happened before in person, at another job and now online... I'm just about ready to say Fxxk it and drop off the face of the Earth and society and just be alone... The only companionship and devotion I'm going to get is from Samantha, absolutely unconditional. I have no expectations of her and she, of me.

I'm tired, frustrated and burned out, I give more than my all, I care too much and work way to hard not realizing what my limits are and end up crashing because of it. Ask me what do I have to show for or prove it and I'll say - nothing.

つづく ( To be continued... )