Italian Sausage Hoagie

Italian Sausage Hoagie
Originally uploaded by tekposse.

I need to cook more often than just ordering fast food, so... I was wanting a Italian Sausage Hoagie from Davanni's. Now since I used to be a cook, I figured that I could make it myself. Here is the results.

Welcome to the Suck

Ok, Day 3, still in pain, still not feeling motivated, still just want to sleep. I can account for the first two feelings, the 3rd, I'm guessing it's from not eating. I vaguely remember that the last time I didn't eat for a while that I felt sick and fatigued. At the sametime, I also didn't have any money.

Right now I'm worried about having enough gas for the vehicle and hoping that I can make it till this Friday.

So this is my life.
Welcome to the Suck.

私はそれら、それに決して生まれなかったら私が私の frustrationsを取ったことよりよかろうだろう apoligize。 行き続ければこのルート私は私が苦しむことを苦しみ、引き起こす必要がないように私の自身の生命を取ることを終える。私は以前自殺についてたくさん考え、それを二度試みたあることが。どんなに最近それは私の心で重く重量を量り、私はちょうど私がに失敗したところで成功するかもしれない。

私は多く何もこの生命の私のためのないことに私が住み、私がしたが、感じるものをしたこと嬉しい。私が別の生命に戻れば、そしてそうならば。 私の私が有する後悔しか私の猫、常に私に無条件愛を示し、常にずっと私のためそこにであるSamantha の後ろで去っていない。

私はこれを読むことができる私のために残念私がそう容易にあきらめることとの失望させたが、自分自身にそんなに握り、ちょうどについて達したリターンがない中断点に持っているそれである。私はこの1 の後にそれ以上の記入項目がなければこれが私の自殺の遺書であることを推測する。皆、私は実際に残念である。

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Life:	3.8
Mind:	3.8
Body:	3.9
Spirit:	4.1
Friends/Family:	3.1
Love:	1.4
Finance:	2.5
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More pain...

This is the second day of pain. The reason? Try walking for 8 hours plus, also carry a 20 pound pack and enough water for about half the trip, then also wear shoes that were not suited to walking that long. Now everytime I go to lie down or stand up or move, my legs are in such pain. Now to make matters worse, not having any food...

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SEMPER FI! Do or Die, Gung Ho, Gung Ho, Gung Ho!

Yesterday, I caught the bus into work. Normally most of you would be saying "So What?", well, from where I live to my work location, it's about 21 miles one way. After a certain hour, there are no buses available. So going into work is not a problem by bus, getting home is a different story. Here is why...

Last night, a last minute issue came up and I couldn't leave until it was completed, normally that wouldn't be a problem if I drive in, but because I was catching the bus with the hopes of at least getting up to a stop further up and making my walk a little closer, the issue ended up making me miss that last bus and I had to take a bus that the last stop was about 4 miles further. Now I live alone, I don't have anyone that I can call so I have to do things on my own.

Here is the map:



Now, Usually when I hike, I normally carry 2 containers of water, however I only had 1 not expecting to take as long as it did. Also, I wasn't expecting the temperature to go as low as 50 degrees, so I was only wearing a light jacket. I was also carrying a backpack and didn't take out some of the heavier stuff, so the total weight I was carrying about about 20 pounds.

So right now, my calves, thighs and feet are in pain, because of the temperature, I have a slight cold, and my forehead has a slight temperature. I wasn't wearing the right shoes and realized after starting my hike that I should've brought different shoes.

While I was walking, the only thing that I could think of was to get home, sleeping in my warm bed and just being home. At about half way I had promised myself that I wouldn't do this again, it's not worth it cause I knew that there would be some major after effects.

One thing for sure, I know how a Marine feels after returning from a 8 hour hike...

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All things eventually come to an end...

There are those who can see it coming and those who can't. Those who can, I believe, are the unlucky ones, it's like a living, waking nightmare that you can't stop. The lucky ones who don't see it coming, usually happens suddenly and without warning. There are times that I just want to scream but I know that I have to keep it to myself. What I may perceive as normal, can be viewed as abnormal to others. Many times I wonder if I'm losing it. I pride myself as not having any psychological issues but lately I've been having doubts. A long time ago, a friend once diagnosed me as being psychotic, I just brushed it off at the time.

時々、私は知らない, 私は私のための端が近くあると考える. 私はちょうど早ければ早いほど良いそれを片付けたいと思う。私は未来を過さない、私は業積を有しない、私にのために気遣い、私を気遣う誰も誰もある。 私が死ぬ場合、誰も私また更に心配を覚えていない。

Maybe I just need to go home. When I say home, I mean to Hawaii. It's been about 6 years since I've been back, which has been the longest time away I've ever spent away from my home.

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I Drink Alone by George Thorogood And The Destroyers

I drink alone, yeah,
with nobody else
I drink alone, yeah,
with nobody else
You know when I drink alone,
I prefer to be by myself

Every morning just before breakfast,
I don't want no coffee or tea
Just me and good buddy Wiser,
that's all I ever need
'Cause I drink alone, yeah,
with nobody else
Yeah, you know when I drink alone,
I prefer to be by myself

The other night I laid sleeping,
and I woke from a terrible dream
So I called up my pal Jack Daniel's,
and his partner Jimmy Beam
And we drank alone, yeah,
with nobody else
Yeah, you know when I drink alone,
I prefer to be by myself

The other day I got invited to a party,
but I stayed home instead
Just me and my pal Johnny Walker,
and his brothers Black and Red
And we drank alone, yeah,
with nobody else
Yeah, you know when I drink alone,
I prefer to be by myself

My whole family done give up on me,
and it makes me feel oh so bad
The only one who will hang out with me,
is my dear old Granddad
And we drink alone, yeah,
with nobody else
Yeah, you know when I drink alone,
I prefer to be by myself

I Don't Care Anymore by Phil Collins

Well you can tell ev'ryone I'm a down disgrace
Drag my name all over the place.
I don't care anymore.
You can tell ev'rybody 'bout the state I'm in
You won't catch me crying 'cos I just can't win.

I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore

I don't care what you say
I don't play the same games you play.

'Cos I've been talking to the people that you call your friends
And it seems to me there's a means to and end.

They don't care anymore.
And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.

I don't care anymore
I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
We never played by the same rules anyway.
I won't be there anymore
Get out of my way
Let me byI got better things to do with my time

I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore

Well, I don't care now what you say
'Cos ev'ry day I'm feeling fine with myself
And I don't care now what you say
Hey I'll do alright by myself'
Cos I know.

'Cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
And you laughed in my face 'cos you held all the cards.

I don't care anymore.

And I really ain't bothered what you think of me
'Cos all I want of you is just a let me be.

I don't care anymore D'you hear?
I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
I never did believe you much anyway.
I won't be there no more
So get out of my way.
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore

D'you hear?
I don't care anymore
I don't care no more
You listening?
I don't care no more
No more!

You know I don't care no more!

My new best friend is named Ms. Sake

I've recently discovered a new type of drink, well, not new but in Japanese it's called "Tokubetsu Jun mai shu", a brand also known as Dreamy Cloud. One of the main reasons I like this is because I don't have any ill effects the next day. Usually I won't drink on a work night because of the ill effects of beer or other alcohols that I have drunk. With this one, I can get drunk the night before and wake up just feeling fine the next day...

Just for the record, I don't usually drink, but because of this, I'm making up for lost time.

I have to admit, I've already finished off 2 bottles, not in one night, but in the past couple of days. As, of course, I write this entry, I'm drunk. Now, as for Japanese people, anything said or done while drunk is forgivable. You can tell your boss to kiss your butt while your drunk and the next day it'll be forgiven.

Right now, I'll just end it here and write more if I remember.

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