Typical day, sort of...

Well tonight went well, not much happening at the hospital, only one admit. I was feeling somewhat depressed and also had a strange feeling all day. I still don't know what it was about. I just hope that it was for a good thing and not a bad thing. I guess I'm needed to work for a co-worker at the hospital because I got the phone call.

After starting at 1600 today, it started off to a slow start, but it seemed to pick up at around 1630. Maybe my emotions that I'm feeling is somehow effecting the patients there. I sure hope not. I was able to go home and get something to eat cause I wasn't able to while at work, missed the dinner hour cause of a late detox admit. This is the third time she's been here and this time, she claims she is going to get married in December. I feel sorry for the guy if she doesn't change. Although he looked as though as he drinks himself.

The night is going good so far, things have calmed down. The weather out side feels like fall. It seems like this month has been going by quickly...

What I planned and what actually happened...

Well, today (yesterday), I had set out to get drunk, the original plan was to drink vodka but instead I chose beer. I not sure, but I think the weather has been having a major effect on my mood. The weather today has been really grey and pretty much raining all day. It later turned cold so it may explain a lot.

Sandy and Robert have noticed that I have been losing weight. Although drinking beer tonight will more than likely put back on a couple of pounds that I had lost. For some reason again today I've been having this strange feeling. I don't know what it is but it's been making me feel uneasy. I can't seem to concentrate on anything and I've been feeling uneasy.

I'm deciding, or at least debating on getting a lottery ticket, the powerball jackpot is fairly high up there.

The Return of the Online Journal

Today is my first page of my personal journal. I've found that by writing what I feel helps me feel better.

I've been a little depressed lately, mostly from working 2 jobs, the other job is about 80 miles away in one direction, while this other job is only about 1 mile away. The 1st job is in Annandale, MN at a country club, working as a Sous Chef. The Manager is a pretty great guy and I really enjoy working for him. He lets me be a little more creative with the dishes that we serve there. The other job, even though it's close by, it's on a shift that goes from Midnight to 0600, it's a quiet shift so I can't complain too much. I just think that it's the being tired part that is making me feel depressed. I'll try and get some sleep tonight which should make a difference